ahhh <3
wow....i made the dumbest mistake....i risked losing the only person i care about in the world...how big of a dumbass can i be? y did i even joke like that? wtf is wrong with me? i am now soo pissed at myslef for even jokin on such a matter and how she realizes that i am soo sory and i love her more than she will ever know....I am sorry for doing something soo stupid and i deserve to suffer..y am i soo dumb? i cant hold back the tears...everything was so perfect one minute and then the next it is all black...i love her and i hope she knows that and i dont want to lose her...i will do anything not to lose her....she is my everything and i cant believe i was so dumb...time to go kick my own ass....<3