“Waist Away”
You’ll say whatever you need to say to keep me in the moment,
Nothing that replaced to be mistaken for atonement,
But I don’t want to be here, there is no creek that can beat my chemical nature to leave, staying strong but catching weak,
In one direction or another, the gutter is never far, wrong state and wrong mind, fetched the glass for memory in shards,
Find me in the same place I swore I’d never go just not to be found, from spinning the story my brain never unwound,
Don’t make me make you see, I’m innocent, till leveraged with guilt, I was never who I had to act to be, all intentions stitched as faces into quilts,
How I can I let the truth out when all are lying, I could easily just be you without even trying, myself is pushed just at the surface, clearly never seen as visible or worth it,
I wished I would only be watched by the overcast with no fear, but they only ever see me in the reflection of my tears,
Beaten in and wishing to be are never the same, numbness setting in far too late,
Not so pretty but not so far, split at what seems, friends for intentions, cheating for keeps, scared for the faltering infections,
You lied with the atmosphere, you killed the lightly with a nod, you hurt the stain by assuming it was already gone,
We settle for the silence in rebellion with a question, I stay here not by choice in the smile I am kept in.
- xoooxo lyrical or not I’m here to stay, like a shout out on Tv, Ett.
Ps. Sorry all of my pictures are from my flip phone, I can’t figure out how to upload them to my laptop so I just take a picture of them with my regular phone and post it in here =‘(
(No credits, an original)