215 * NEW YEAR, YES.
It's the 3rd day of the New Year and most people are scurrying off to work. I start on Friday, so I guess soon I'll be joining the rest of the gang. I wonder that now that I am 3 days late whether I am supposed or expected to deliever introspective retrospections on the year 2006 and at the same time muse about the prospects of 2007 etc etc. At the same time, I'm a little in shock that I've been conned into staying at home to supervise people who are mending my wall.
To talk about 2006, it has been eventful and part of me can't really believe that it's over already. The last few days of 2006 were horrible for me, primarily because I lost a friend whom I considered close to me and I thought considered me close to her. I believe now that the latter belief of mine was not true and either I was completely misled or it was really wishful thinking on my part. I also feel like I've lost another friend purely through a state of ambivalence, because I do not know what to do or say. I'm trying to sound more flippant than I actually am, because I guess it helps when I can simply distant myself from the truth. It makes things a lot easier. I'm not sure whether people expect me to tell the truth on this journal, because I very well could but it wouldn't help matters. And as they say, it's 2007, time to move on etc etc. As such, I have conditioned myself into not caring anymore, into giving up and letting go. I believe I will meet new friends along the course of my life and that these 2 whom I have had to let go of will too discover for themselves an existence without me that they are comfortable with. In the first place, I do not think that my existence matters to them as much as theirs mattered to me so honestly I think all's well that ends well.
Then again, 2006 was largely amazing and it was when I learnt how to look out for beauty in the simplest of things. I am more easily fascinated now than I was before, which I think is a gift. I am able to appreciate the smallest things better and looking down on what 2007 has to bring, I think 2006 has been very very kind. As usual, I have no resolutions. I believe that this year marks the time of growing up proper - where you have to pay adult fare, where you'll be meeting genuinely scheming people in the working world, etc. It's the last year of being a teenager and I've also started to wish that I could look younger instead of older than my age.
Wow, things change.
Shall however leave you with some glorious photos of my trip to the zoo yesterday, which left me so unbelievably excited!
01. Dingxuan looking stunned as always and me being the more ecstatic one about going to the zoo.
02. My favourite animal, the otter. I want to keep a pet otter but it doesn't seem like it's possible. Maybe when I get a big big house and can afford to give it a private pool, etc.
03. Rhinos who deceptively look like the most dangerous creature in Africa, but the real culprits are the Hippos who are responsible for the most number of human deaths by a mile.
04. After the feature article in Life, we had to do Inuka and Sheba some justice by paying them a visit. I'm not sure which one the glorious looking one is though.
05. White tiger! In my opinion, the most gorgeous tiger ever. I also only found out that tigers can only be found in Asia. I remember back in those days when Esso used to give away soft toy beanie tigers. I have all 4!
06. Zebras grazing, and I think they really look a picture of perfection.
07. The picture of baboons I took for Gina, because they really reminded me of Hua Guo Shan. I don't know what kind of monkey Sun Wuk Kong's friends are, but in any case Gina and I are going to visit the real HGS one day to find out.
08. And because I couldn't get near a real kangeroo, I decided to take a picture with this nice harmless-looking friendly one.
Incidentally, I got licked by a goat yesterday! It was really very cute, but kinda camera shy so :(((
Okay yay, last couple of days of freedom before work starts.