Feelin a lil ashamed
Damn i dunno why the fuck i cant sleep.. I dunno if im excited or if im just aggravated with myself?? Yet again ive let my dad buy his way back into my life an for the life of me i cant figure out why. I mean i know i love him an id do just about anything too have him be a full time father which i know he'll never be...I didnt realize it til today when he helped me too get a car an tomorrow hes puttin a deposit up for me too get a nextel.. Only problem is i feel like a sell-out i feel like i should be pissed for him never being here for me ,, yet i seem to be so simple an believe that hes gunna be here forever which i know in another month or 2 he'll be outta my life again....I dunno if anyone reads this anymore but if you do please comment.....