(no subject)

Jan 10, 2007 20:35

someone times i just don't get..how one can get into the place they are at the current moment
when it feels like its been seconds but in reality months
when you've got a clear plan, and suddenly its shattered and no matter how hard you try to push forward its always there pulling you back.. grabbing hold of every inch of your body, every fiber you have
& then it affects every ascept of your life, and you can't reverse the curse its got on you, and when you reach out trying to find that closure you need you can't
i feel the past 6 months of my life have been a joke..one big fuck up after the next, and when i finally reach something good, something leading me to the future its just shattered by my same thoughts over and over and over
so many good things going so i've heard, yeah il go to college but will i ever be happy when i get there, at this rate true happiness is a foriegn concept
its a new year, or so we try to make it
im still puling my same shit telling myself to stay calm, be happy, positive not angry but its a new year with the same shit
wasted too many tears, on things in the past that no matter what i can't get back
what i want for the new year is what i ahve, and can't get back, cause you tried and got nothing he doesn't want it, and thats all there is to it..
i can say it but never accept it

i've made so many mistakes, done things i wish i never did, and have really felt the consequences of my actions
if i could take every thing back of these past months i would and start it all over, cause i don't like where im at, who i am or what i have, but how to fix it no one knows
not me especially, can talk as much as i want but it it won't help
won'te ver help till i can spill my guts to you which is never
thats the only way for me to heal with you help
thanks.. for no help at all
Previous post Next post
Up