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I can't believe, more than a year later, I am still heartbroken. The thing is, there was never any closure. I know that we can't be together, that this was the right choice, but there is always that "what if" in the back of my mind. I just want to bury this and move forward. I feel like there is so much I want to say to her about it, but I wouldn't even know where to begin. I honestly don't think we will ever even see eye to eye on what happened between us.
And I am still barely getting over it, I don't think I could even talk to her about it. The last thing I want to do is reopen that can of worms. But at the same time I really feel like I need some closure.
I have never been that emotionally hurt in my life, and I hope to never be like that again. Just thinking back to the worst of it, my stomach turns.
14 months later and I'm sitting here on livejournal, eyes welling up just because something randomly reminded me of it all.
I have so many memories, that I want to just be good memories, but every time they come up I can't help but end up back here.
Nothing in life is a sure bet.
And I am still barely getting over it, I don't think I could even talk to her about it. The last thing I want to do is reopen that can of worms. But at the same time I really feel like I need some closure.
I have never been that emotionally hurt in my life, and I hope to never be like that again. Just thinking back to the worst of it, my stomach turns.
14 months later and I'm sitting here on livejournal, eyes welling up just because something randomly reminded me of it all.
I have so many memories, that I want to just be good memories, but every time they come up I can't help but end up back here.
Nothing in life is a sure bet.