Change
Sometimes I wonder if I'm trying to hard.
Trying to hard to please everyone, trying too hard to please myself.
Trying to hard to hold on to something that doesn't or will never ever be mine.
Week 6 into the school term and I thought I am fine
but I'm not.
Went for MBTI profiling with jas today.
Even though the result stays the same, when I looked into the details, I realised I actually changed.
The intovert-ish level went up while the extrovert-ist level went significantly lower.
Jas says it may be because of the change in environment which resulted in this happening to me.
And that I appeared more of an extrovert to people I don't know and introvert to people I know.
Spot on.
I'm so much more reserved than I was.
Much much more.
What led to the change?
Why do I feel so gloomy more often than not?
It feels like I don't know myself anymore. It just doesn't feel right.
Why is it when I grow up, I start to question myself so much more that I challenge the very fundamentals of my existence.
Damn. Should have taken psychology.
Week 6 and I'm still wondering if I'm on the right track.
Week 6 and I'm still wondering if I can find what I want/need.
Week 6 and I'm so lagging behind.
Week 6 and I'm so very tired.
Week 6 and I'm struggling to hold on.
I miss..
Trying to hard to please everyone, trying too hard to please myself.
Trying to hard to hold on to something that doesn't or will never ever be mine.
Week 6 into the school term and I thought I am fine
but I'm not.
Went for MBTI profiling with jas today.
Even though the result stays the same, when I looked into the details, I realised I actually changed.
The intovert-ish level went up while the extrovert-ist level went significantly lower.
Jas says it may be because of the change in environment which resulted in this happening to me.
And that I appeared more of an extrovert to people I don't know and introvert to people I know.
Spot on.
I'm so much more reserved than I was.
Much much more.
What led to the change?
Why do I feel so gloomy more often than not?
It feels like I don't know myself anymore. It just doesn't feel right.
Why is it when I grow up, I start to question myself so much more that I challenge the very fundamentals of my existence.
Damn. Should have taken psychology.
Week 6 and I'm still wondering if I'm on the right track.
Week 6 and I'm still wondering if I can find what I want/need.
Week 6 and I'm so lagging behind.
Week 6 and I'm so very tired.
Week 6 and I'm struggling to hold on.
I miss..