Fic: Ruminations
Ruminations by Mewwy
Warnings: None
Pairings: Steve and Danny
Plot: Danny reflects on helping Rachel give birth. Episode 2.14
Beta'd: Gnat
Word Count: 624
Disclaimer: I don't own them wish that I could. If I could there would be more nekkid and feelings and well explosions!
Steve wasn't home yet, so Danny let himself in. He'd picked up Thai food and two six packs. Depositing the beer in the fridge and the Thai food on the counter, he looked around the kitchen. It looked the same as it had yesterday morning, half finished breakfasts in the sink and coffee partially drunk. Knowing Steve well enough, he quickly cleaned the kitchen. It had been a long couple of days, what with helping Rachel and Joe leaving. Steve had given him an overview at breakfast. Only Navy SEALs would meet with pissed off Yakuza at night.
Kitchen clean, Danny headed up to shower. Thirty-six hours awake and he was ready for food then bed. While in the shower, he thought of little Charlie; the baby could have been his. Rachel never once corrected the staff that Danny wasn't the father, neither had Danny, for that matter. He did feel bad that Stan had missed his son's birth, but not too bad. Danny and Rachel made a good team, only after ditching the goofy ideas from Stan's sister. He could have been a father again; it was a near miss. One that hurts him, but his life would be different, so very different. He'd be in Jersey for one. Freezing his ass off, but he'd have a son, a beautiful little boy. Instead, he is warm and toasty in Hawaii, and he has Steve. He didn't see that one coming.
What could prepare him for one Lieutenant Commander Steven J. McGarrett? After the fiasco with Dr. Asano, he'd gone to Steve to kvetch. She was nice and all, but they just didn't connect. Steve had been supportive; he encouraged Danny to try again, said first dates are supposed to be awful. So Danny had asked Gabby out a couple more times, but the life of a cop was too busy for her. When Steve got back from Korea, he and Danny talked. Steve admitted he'd thought about Danny the whole time, maybe more than he should have. A safe place to go in his head Steve said. It was then that Danny admitted losing Steve would have destroyed him. All this time, he'd been half in love with Steve but was concentrating on the half that was in love with Rachel. When Steve had taken his hand, Danny felt like he had come home.
Coming home to Steve was easy; it was like breathing. The man drove him nuts; took too many risks with their lives, but somehow Danny had found he loved that too. Not like he'd tell Steve. The quiet times on the beach. Their carguments, the way Steve would get him coffee when Steve got himself one, the touches, smiles, all of it had sucked Danny in. Now, he was back at Steve's and in Steve's bed; what a change from eight weeks ago. Somehow they fit, like the pieces to a puzzle.
"Hey Danno, you drowning in here?" Steve said from the open door way.
"Nope, just contemplating life."
Chuckling, Steve said over the rush of the water, "Well, hurry up. I'm starving."
"Okay." Watching Rachel give birth was a painful reminder; a memento of what he thought he had wanted, a future that was all laid out. A future that had included a house, a wife, and two kids. Now instead, he has a Navy SEAL who is all restless energy and goofy smiles. He wouldn't have it any other way.
Finis
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Mewwy