dont worry 'bout a thing... la la la la
i have a country song stuck in my head.
this week has definitely been eventful to say the least. i've gone to two job interviews, dyed my hair reddish brown, and had one of the best and most interesting/confusing/eventful nights of my life. i can't really go into detail here. just ask.
so i met aud's future roommate, matt (who i've been talking to for about two months, and who i made a drunken promise to and who for some reason is constantly on my mind). awesome guy. really like him. don't know about the whole long distance thing though. once he comes back up here for school in august, i'm leaving three weeks later in september. i damned bg, he damned osu. why couldn't we have picked a happy medium like wesleyan or something? i was asked the question today, "what do you want out of a relationship with him?" i've never been asked that question before. i want what everyone wants out of a relationship: i want to be h appy with the person i'm with and i want to feel safe, comfortable and special. honestly, in the few hours i spent with him, i felt all three of those tings. his arms make a very comfortable place to be. a lot of other stuff happened that night that had me really confused for a while, but all in all, i've come to realize that things happen and you can't change it. if they're going to happen, they're going to happen. fate has a strange way of working like that. aud, if you're reading this, i promise i'm not mad about anything that happened, and you (or i whenever she decides its safe to talk to me) can assure jamye as well that i am not upset about anything. i'm really not even that confused anymore. i know what i want and he knows what i want.
i'm going to jump around topics here because i dont really know how to go about going from something like that to something about my computer which is bugging the shit out of me. everytime i'm online for more than like 10 minutes, the browser says my websites are unable to be found. i dont know why, but for some reason its working now and has been for about an hour. *knocks on wood* i really wish my mom had a cable modem. that would make my life so much fricking easier. well, that and not having whatever the hell is wrong with my computer. i just realized that my head is face down on a pillow on the family room floor and i've typed this entire last paragraph with my eyes shut and my head down. that's beautiful. thank you mr fry for teaching me how to type.
there was something else that i was going to put in here, and i can't for the life of me remember what it was. oh. i went to an abw show last week, and stereomod was headlining. i swear it was a fricking maumee reunion with so many people that i can't stand. alyssa warnke (atleast i think that's who it was?!) came up to me and was like, "OMG you're in town? when did you get back? how are you doing? *huuuuuuug* we should hang out sometime. do you have my number? oh you don't have your phone? that's too bad". i walked away wondering who the hell she was until it hit me about ten minutes later. i also saw mahlman, colin cummings, the tall skinny girl that dated eric heinze for a few minutes, of course anthony, eric, goss and jamie. oh yeah, they're engaged for anyone who didn't know that. well, i kinda figured they'd end up married since they've been together since like 3rd grade or somewhere along those lines. i dont know, its just weird seeing people that i haven't spoken to at all in about two years, and then just having some chick run up to me and hug me all weird. i had actually forgotten that a lot of those people existed. is that bad?
i hope not.
oh well, i'm hells tired, so i'm out.
this week has definitely been eventful to say the least. i've gone to two job interviews, dyed my hair reddish brown, and had one of the best and most interesting/confusing/eventful nights of my life. i can't really go into detail here. just ask.
so i met aud's future roommate, matt (who i've been talking to for about two months, and who i made a drunken promise to and who for some reason is constantly on my mind). awesome guy. really like him. don't know about the whole long distance thing though. once he comes back up here for school in august, i'm leaving three weeks later in september. i damned bg, he damned osu. why couldn't we have picked a happy medium like wesleyan or something? i was asked the question today, "what do you want out of a relationship with him?" i've never been asked that question before. i want what everyone wants out of a relationship: i want to be h appy with the person i'm with and i want to feel safe, comfortable and special. honestly, in the few hours i spent with him, i felt all three of those tings. his arms make a very comfortable place to be. a lot of other stuff happened that night that had me really confused for a while, but all in all, i've come to realize that things happen and you can't change it. if they're going to happen, they're going to happen. fate has a strange way of working like that. aud, if you're reading this, i promise i'm not mad about anything that happened, and you (or i whenever she decides its safe to talk to me) can assure jamye as well that i am not upset about anything. i'm really not even that confused anymore. i know what i want and he knows what i want.
i'm going to jump around topics here because i dont really know how to go about going from something like that to something about my computer which is bugging the shit out of me. everytime i'm online for more than like 10 minutes, the browser says my websites are unable to be found. i dont know why, but for some reason its working now and has been for about an hour. *knocks on wood* i really wish my mom had a cable modem. that would make my life so much fricking easier. well, that and not having whatever the hell is wrong with my computer. i just realized that my head is face down on a pillow on the family room floor and i've typed this entire last paragraph with my eyes shut and my head down. that's beautiful. thank you mr fry for teaching me how to type.
there was something else that i was going to put in here, and i can't for the life of me remember what it was. oh. i went to an abw show last week, and stereomod was headlining. i swear it was a fricking maumee reunion with so many people that i can't stand. alyssa warnke (atleast i think that's who it was?!) came up to me and was like, "OMG you're in town? when did you get back? how are you doing? *huuuuuuug* we should hang out sometime. do you have my number? oh you don't have your phone? that's too bad". i walked away wondering who the hell she was until it hit me about ten minutes later. i also saw mahlman, colin cummings, the tall skinny girl that dated eric heinze for a few minutes, of course anthony, eric, goss and jamie. oh yeah, they're engaged for anyone who didn't know that. well, i kinda figured they'd end up married since they've been together since like 3rd grade or somewhere along those lines. i dont know, its just weird seeing people that i haven't spoken to at all in about two years, and then just having some chick run up to me and hug me all weird. i had actually forgotten that a lot of those people existed. is that bad?
i hope not.
oh well, i'm hells tired, so i'm out.