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speaking of things being great... went to club bijou on friday night for an abw concert. getting to see josh first hand, knowing he's here and he's staying, was unbelievable. first thing, huge hug. second thing, little talking and looking and another hug because i was freezing and he was warm and he was there and i couldn't resist. i had never felt that feeling of having "butterflies" in my stomach before... until that night. it was like all the feelings that i tried to shove out of the way and ignore just came rushing back to me like a tidal wave. i was practically knocked on the ground the minute i saw him. and here i thought i was over him... so we're sitting at a high top table just talking and whatnot, and josh comes over and he's standing in front of the table bullshitting and whatever, giving me some googly eyes and raising his eyebrows so i raise an eyebrow and shoot him a smoochy face. he walks over to me and says, "do you wanna kiss? i'm giving them out tonight". so yes, i kissed him. so then we watch a pretty good band and then a really sucky one, and then its time for abw. well josh feels the need (keep in mind he's been drinking since 8, its 11, and he hasn't eaten all day) to take his pants off. so the band is playing and there's josh in his red/white boxers, white tshirt and vans. so classic. so after the show we're waiting for josh so we can say goodbye and jamye can give him back his camera (which she took 68 pictures on), and he comes over and he's all hugging on us and whatnot. so i'm the last one to get my hug and he pulls back, and kisses me again. this time... missing my lip and kinda hitting my nose and the top of my top lip. haha it was classic. so then after that i hug him again, he whispers in my ear to take care of myself in columbus, and then i couldn't resisit, so i pulled back again and went in for the third of the night. call me a lip whore. but oh gah i can't believe i kissed him and i wasn't even drunk this time. simply beautiful. i can't even explain. the feeling is just one of those things that makes it feel like your heart is smiling. does that even make sense? its seriously like the greatest feeling ever when you see someone for the first time in almost 3 months... its like anything that has happened that sucked, simply doesn't matter anymore. and maybe i'm just rambling, but call it my streak of creativity in my stream of consciousness style of writing. ok i have stuff to do today. and then back to school in the morning to drop off a paper, study for spanish, sleep, and take me spanish final on tuesday evening. then its back here wednesday night for some wedding/christmas/new years... wonder what else. oh man this feeling is great. :)