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Something i wrote a long ass time ago...mmmm
Is it possible to be too mature?
but at the same time
Immature?
Sometimes I feel like I know too much for my own good.
I have friends who like a lot of the stuff I like...
Music,
People,
Our thoughts
And ideas
But at the same time I feel like
...I’m drifting away.
Every day, I change.
I usually don’t like change but I still find it interesting,
In the way that I come out feeling
Enlightened
About something new.
This time...
I feel like a different person.
I still love to laugh and listen to music,
I still feel like a hypocritical, naive, teenager.
And I still enjoy watching cartoons with my little sisters.
But I also love poetry,
Reading.
Reading about life
Reality.
Interested in discussing the issues of what‘s going on around us.
Not who's dating who
But more like the nation’s problems or world wide issues.
The hate crimes.
The deaths.
The abuse.
The anger.
The hatred.
And the meaning.
The frustration of ignorance.
But I’m still that teenager,
Who doesn’t mean much to the world,
Whose views on life are still considered "naive and inexperienced"
Who still has a lot to learn and
Who loves to hang out with her friends
maybe I am too mature?
..maybe I should just surrender to conformity and hide my thoughts to make room for something much more important like...
trends
fashion
and gossip
what will everyone think of me?
will they see me as a person who thinks too much and should shut up?
as a person who is stupid just cause they want to speak out.
to be heard.
as a person who speaks blindly of things they don’t know of.
maybe I am...
or I just might be one of those people who just can’t take any more of the
frustration.
the anger.
the hate.
the abuse.
the ignorance.
the pain.
the suffering.
the poverty.
the helplessness of being a teenager in this world...
so much to say...
but it doesn’t matter
because no one will listen.
no one will listen to
The naive and inexperienced teenager.
Is it possible to be too mature?
but at the same time
Immature?
Sometimes I feel like I know too much for my own good.
I have friends who like a lot of the stuff I like...
Music,
People,
Our thoughts
And ideas
But at the same time I feel like
...I’m drifting away.
Every day, I change.
I usually don’t like change but I still find it interesting,
In the way that I come out feeling
Enlightened
About something new.
This time...
I feel like a different person.
I still love to laugh and listen to music,
I still feel like a hypocritical, naive, teenager.
And I still enjoy watching cartoons with my little sisters.
But I also love poetry,
Reading.
Reading about life
Reality.
Interested in discussing the issues of what‘s going on around us.
Not who's dating who
But more like the nation’s problems or world wide issues.
The hate crimes.
The deaths.
The abuse.
The anger.
The hatred.
And the meaning.
The frustration of ignorance.
But I’m still that teenager,
Who doesn’t mean much to the world,
Whose views on life are still considered "naive and inexperienced"
Who still has a lot to learn and
Who loves to hang out with her friends
maybe I am too mature?
..maybe I should just surrender to conformity and hide my thoughts to make room for something much more important like...
trends
fashion
and gossip
what will everyone think of me?
will they see me as a person who thinks too much and should shut up?
as a person who is stupid just cause they want to speak out.
to be heard.
as a person who speaks blindly of things they don’t know of.
maybe I am...
or I just might be one of those people who just can’t take any more of the
frustration.
the anger.
the hate.
the abuse.
the ignorance.
the pain.
the suffering.
the poverty.
the helplessness of being a teenager in this world...
so much to say...
but it doesn’t matter
because no one will listen.
no one will listen to
The naive and inexperienced teenager.