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OK SO HERE'S THE DEAL YO...Today fuckin' sucks!
I woke up at 9, I was happy and in a good mood. Our computer is still fucked up, since my mom decided to do a system restore now instead of waiting till my class is over with and my paper (the major one being my research paper is smooth sailing, which it is not going so well by the way). So I'm on that for like 3 hrs., stressed out as all hell because the shit is confusing as all hell and didn't do what I wanted it to even when I was following the directions. To make a long story short, we need to update the drivers on there and well omg you know what, I don't even want to get into it. So...eventually I started getting sick, my chest continued to get tense, ultimately bothering my heart and I started getting really dizzy. It was bad um yeah.
After that whole bullshit I finished getting ready cuz I have class tonight and I went down to St. John to have my TB test read, which was negative of course. Well I left the paper I was supposed to bring back with me at home and I was like oh shit. Luckily, the lady said it was ok, as long as they knew I was there, what day and all that so she could look it up. So she did and it took like only a second. After that I go down to the volunteer services office and give Jeanne the sheet (the lady who interviewed me and got me my badge Monday). I could tell she was glad to see me. So I did that, thinking I was all set. I had already left and turned onto Moross when I realized I need my volunteer jacket (and the patch), since I have an orientation with the nurses in NICU tomorrow at 9 a.m. So of course I had to go back, ugh :sigh: can I forget anything else today? Seriously, my brain is fried. I did that and had to pay $20 for that shit, jesus christ. Oh well.
I went and got something to eat at Mr. Pita in the little shopping center right by the hospital and guess who I saw? My old friend Kelly Particca, we used to hang out mostly in middle school. She said she thought she saw me the other day at the mall and I said "I was at Somerset," and she said, no, that it was Lakeside. Damn. Anyways, I didn't get to talking too much to her since she was working, she just asked me what I was doing and I told her I will be volunteering here and going to WSU for nursing. She didn't tell me what she was doing, other than living with her dad somewhere around 13 and Jefferson. I'm glad I saw her today.
I'm at school right now, since my computer is all jacked up. The Internet works but we don't have the anti-virus installed yet, my dad has to do that. Jesus Christ. And then my parents are going up north Sat. and not coming back till Tuesday. I can't wait to be alone.
I ended up going over Lance's last night and we talked through the things I've been thinking lately. Him and I both agreed that maybe this just isn't the right time for us in our lives right now and the likelihood that we will be friends and not bf and gf again is high (for now). In other words, we both agreed that now's not the time to be together and try and make our relationship work. We still agreed that we will go on this vacation together and we both realize that this is not some last ditch effort for us, and that our problems will still be here when we get back. So that means we are free from one another I suppose. I felt a lot better after talking to him about this. He said "I love you" to me and I know he does, and he knows I love him, but it's just not working at this point in time. If it's meant to be it will be, but right now, this is how it has to be.
Well I'm going to get going, I have some reading to do, that's if I can concentrate. I am highly scatterbrained today. Later!
I woke up at 9, I was happy and in a good mood. Our computer is still fucked up, since my mom decided to do a system restore now instead of waiting till my class is over with and my paper (the major one being my research paper is smooth sailing, which it is not going so well by the way). So I'm on that for like 3 hrs., stressed out as all hell because the shit is confusing as all hell and didn't do what I wanted it to even when I was following the directions. To make a long story short, we need to update the drivers on there and well omg you know what, I don't even want to get into it. So...eventually I started getting sick, my chest continued to get tense, ultimately bothering my heart and I started getting really dizzy. It was bad um yeah.
After that whole bullshit I finished getting ready cuz I have class tonight and I went down to St. John to have my TB test read, which was negative of course. Well I left the paper I was supposed to bring back with me at home and I was like oh shit. Luckily, the lady said it was ok, as long as they knew I was there, what day and all that so she could look it up. So she did and it took like only a second. After that I go down to the volunteer services office and give Jeanne the sheet (the lady who interviewed me and got me my badge Monday). I could tell she was glad to see me. So I did that, thinking I was all set. I had already left and turned onto Moross when I realized I need my volunteer jacket (and the patch), since I have an orientation with the nurses in NICU tomorrow at 9 a.m. So of course I had to go back, ugh :sigh: can I forget anything else today? Seriously, my brain is fried. I did that and had to pay $20 for that shit, jesus christ. Oh well.
I went and got something to eat at Mr. Pita in the little shopping center right by the hospital and guess who I saw? My old friend Kelly Particca, we used to hang out mostly in middle school. She said she thought she saw me the other day at the mall and I said "I was at Somerset," and she said, no, that it was Lakeside. Damn. Anyways, I didn't get to talking too much to her since she was working, she just asked me what I was doing and I told her I will be volunteering here and going to WSU for nursing. She didn't tell me what she was doing, other than living with her dad somewhere around 13 and Jefferson. I'm glad I saw her today.
I'm at school right now, since my computer is all jacked up. The Internet works but we don't have the anti-virus installed yet, my dad has to do that. Jesus Christ. And then my parents are going up north Sat. and not coming back till Tuesday. I can't wait to be alone.
I ended up going over Lance's last night and we talked through the things I've been thinking lately. Him and I both agreed that maybe this just isn't the right time for us in our lives right now and the likelihood that we will be friends and not bf and gf again is high (for now). In other words, we both agreed that now's not the time to be together and try and make our relationship work. We still agreed that we will go on this vacation together and we both realize that this is not some last ditch effort for us, and that our problems will still be here when we get back. So that means we are free from one another I suppose. I felt a lot better after talking to him about this. He said "I love you" to me and I know he does, and he knows I love him, but it's just not working at this point in time. If it's meant to be it will be, but right now, this is how it has to be.
Well I'm going to get going, I have some reading to do, that's if I can concentrate. I am highly scatterbrained today. Later!