but i mean nothing to you and you don't know why

[quixoticjade]

reference the february 28th entry.

ta daaaaa - burned.

it's funny that lots of songs i've been hearing lately have had fire metaphors in them.

keep my hand in the fire
sooner or later
i get what i'm asking for
--"tattoo" - jordin sparks

if it is born in flames
then we should let it burn
burn as brightly as we can
and if it's gotta end
then let it end in flames
let it burn all the way down
--"currents" - dashboard confessional

fire's a beautiful sound
and the wings that you burn
turn to ashes my dear
and ashes just fall to the ground
we were only ashes
...
incinerate what's left of this
and torch the part of me that's you
--"only ashes" - something corporate

if there's one thing i've learned
it's that we never feel the heat until we get burned
--"appreciation and the bomb" - the spill canvas

stop burning bridges
and drive off of them
so i can forget about you
--"tell that mick he made my list of things to do today" - fall out boy

what a shame we all became such fragile, broken things
a memory remains just a tiny spark
i give it all my oxygen
to let the flames begin
--"let the flames begin" - paramore

i'm not sure how to describe what i feel right now.
actually - i can't describe it, not at all.
at first i thought i was completely over things
but now i recognize that as numbness.
sooo... now i don't really know what i feel.
is it bittersweet sadness?
is it detachment?
is it loneliness?
rejection?
confusion?
anxiety?
heartache?

i'm not sure if i'll ever know.