I know I'm getting nowhere when I only sit and stare like I'm going down
This is my (live)journal. In which I write about my life. I've said it before and I'm sure I'll say it again, for the time being my life fucking sucks. It's major suckage with little bits of happy sprinkled around but regardless of how itty those bits are I DO HAVE REASONS TO BE HAPPY, DAMMIT! I am going to write about them now.
1. Boyfriend is great about the distance. During one particular phone call he was around his roommates and he was a little annoyed by me and I could tell. I told him it sucks feeling like I need him more than he needs me and he said, "I know you do. But if I were in your situation, stuck at home with no one ever there and no friends and not getting hours at work, I'd be the same way. Your neediness does bother me sometimes but I understand. And don't think I love you any less." Ladies and gentlemen, we have a keeper.
2. Even though I'm probably (still haven't heard from a few schools) looking at having to apply to med school again, (stay positive stay positive stay positive) at least I don't have to retake the MCAT 'cause I did well enough on it the first time... and I have everything recorded from last time so not as much work... and I'll get them in waaayy before the deadline rather than ON it... This is happy, right?
3. I go to Zumba with my mom twice a week and it's FUN, guys! I like feeling like I'm doing something good for my mom, getting her blood pumping so she'll stay healthy... and it's a workout for me too. Plus I get to spend time with her. Though these days the family's probably more worried about my mental health than hers... GAH! POSITIVE! I like Zumba.
4. I don't exactly have NO friends here. Shelby's study abroad in Tokyo got cut short by the earthquake, and while I shouldn't be glad she's stuck here, it's nice to have her around. And her good friend Toni is quickly becoming one of my good friends too. We spent three hours at Five Guys last week, just talking. And Adi's in town too. Even though he works full time, I know he's here if I need him.
5. Getting to spend more time with my family is great. I house/dog/cousin-sat at my aunt's house while her and my uncle were in the Philippines for two weeks, and I got to hang out with my sixteen-year-old cousin a lot more than the usual playing video games together at family parties. He's growing up, I see it, and he's a good kid - smart, dedicated, with a great sense of humor even though he's a little insecure. But isn't everyone insecure at that age? Sherwood and I got to take him to his first breakdance battle, and I'm so glad I get to share those memories with him. He's as close to a little brother as I'll ever have, and while before I'd still say we were close, now I value our relationship much more.
6. This year I won't be away at school when it's time to plant flowers!!! I'm so excited, I love gardening. :)
7. Laura is an esthiology student at the Aveda Institute in East Lansing and because of this I now have a rockin' discount and will soon have a best friend who knows everything about skin & waxing and how to give a great massage. I see pampering in my future...
This is harder than it looks. But seven happies, though not ten, is definitely better than none. Oh, here's another one:
8. I get way more sleep nowadays.
And on that note, goodnight.
1. Boyfriend is great about the distance. During one particular phone call he was around his roommates and he was a little annoyed by me and I could tell. I told him it sucks feeling like I need him more than he needs me and he said, "I know you do. But if I were in your situation, stuck at home with no one ever there and no friends and not getting hours at work, I'd be the same way. Your neediness does bother me sometimes but I understand. And don't think I love you any less." Ladies and gentlemen, we have a keeper.
2. Even though I'm probably (still haven't heard from a few schools) looking at having to apply to med school again, (stay positive stay positive stay positive) at least I don't have to retake the MCAT 'cause I did well enough on it the first time... and I have everything recorded from last time so not as much work... and I'll get them in waaayy before the deadline rather than ON it... This is happy, right?
3. I go to Zumba with my mom twice a week and it's FUN, guys! I like feeling like I'm doing something good for my mom, getting her blood pumping so she'll stay healthy... and it's a workout for me too. Plus I get to spend time with her. Though these days the family's probably more worried about my mental health than hers... GAH! POSITIVE! I like Zumba.
4. I don't exactly have NO friends here. Shelby's study abroad in Tokyo got cut short by the earthquake, and while I shouldn't be glad she's stuck here, it's nice to have her around. And her good friend Toni is quickly becoming one of my good friends too. We spent three hours at Five Guys last week, just talking. And Adi's in town too. Even though he works full time, I know he's here if I need him.
5. Getting to spend more time with my family is great. I house/dog/cousin-sat at my aunt's house while her and my uncle were in the Philippines for two weeks, and I got to hang out with my sixteen-year-old cousin a lot more than the usual playing video games together at family parties. He's growing up, I see it, and he's a good kid - smart, dedicated, with a great sense of humor even though he's a little insecure. But isn't everyone insecure at that age? Sherwood and I got to take him to his first breakdance battle, and I'm so glad I get to share those memories with him. He's as close to a little brother as I'll ever have, and while before I'd still say we were close, now I value our relationship much more.
6. This year I won't be away at school when it's time to plant flowers!!! I'm so excited, I love gardening. :)
7. Laura is an esthiology student at the Aveda Institute in East Lansing and because of this I now have a rockin' discount and will soon have a best friend who knows everything about skin & waxing and how to give a great massage. I see pampering in my future...
This is harder than it looks. But seven happies, though not ten, is definitely better than none. Oh, here's another one:
8. I get way more sleep nowadays.
And on that note, goodnight.