The phone don't ring and the tears they fall - but you carry on, and on, and on
You can only wallow
and cry
and sulk
and feel sorry for yourself
and berate yourself
and wish it had been different
and avoid others
and listen to sad music
and shut yourself in
for so long.
Eventually you learn
or maybe you already knew
and just had to admit to yourself
that the only way to fix things
is to pick yourself up.
Do what you can
disregard what you can't control
put your big girl panties on.
Be thankful for what you do have
what you have done
and the people in your life that will support you
and love you
no matter how much you screw up.
Things may not be optimal
...but it's gonna be ok.
Things are really shitty right now, but one good thing that I've gotten out of it is that I've realized just how lucky I am to have Sherwood in my life. He's been calling me to help me stay on track with my MCAT studying (only a week left! Aah!) and is always so supportive, loving, comforting, reassuring, caring... anything and everything I need - even when I wake him up with stressed, panicked phone calls at 2AM.
...I love him. So much. That's so cheesy to say, but it's true. He's away right now, helping his parents move into their new house, and it's crazy how much I miss him. I've gotten so used to spending all my time with him - we haven't been apart for more than a weekend since spring break, when we hadn't been dating for very long. It's going to be weird when I go home for a bit after my MCAT is done, and then again in June to help prepare for Jon's (my cousin's) grad party... It'll suck missing him but I don't want to stop. I only want to love him more.
and cry
and sulk
and feel sorry for yourself
and berate yourself
and wish it had been different
and avoid others
and listen to sad music
and shut yourself in
for so long.
Eventually you learn
or maybe you already knew
and just had to admit to yourself
that the only way to fix things
is to pick yourself up.
Do what you can
disregard what you can't control
put your big girl panties on.
Be thankful for what you do have
what you have done
and the people in your life that will support you
and love you
no matter how much you screw up.
Things may not be optimal
...but it's gonna be ok.
Things are really shitty right now, but one good thing that I've gotten out of it is that I've realized just how lucky I am to have Sherwood in my life. He's been calling me to help me stay on track with my MCAT studying (only a week left! Aah!) and is always so supportive, loving, comforting, reassuring, caring... anything and everything I need - even when I wake him up with stressed, panicked phone calls at 2AM.
...I love him. So much. That's so cheesy to say, but it's true. He's away right now, helping his parents move into their new house, and it's crazy how much I miss him. I've gotten so used to spending all my time with him - we haven't been apart for more than a weekend since spring break, when we hadn't been dating for very long. It's going to be weird when I go home for a bit after my MCAT is done, and then again in June to help prepare for Jon's (my cousin's) grad party... It'll suck missing him but I don't want to stop. I only want to love him more.