sigh

Mar 25, 2008 21:33

so today was one of those days, i guess. i had an interview with wells fargo this morning and my sweet little baby darling would NOT stay asleep last night. ugh. then i had to drag my butt out of bed and when i put on my brand new (as in bought yesterday), freshly washed button up shirt with sleeves long enough to hide my wrist tattoos, i discovered it shrank in the dryer! great! my boobs and belly were popping the buttons practically. yargh! so that was annoying, because i spent money i totally didn't have on it.

my interview went really well but apparently nona was beside herself with hunger and she wouldn't eat the bottle of formula josh prepared (my breast milk was frozen, and he claimed there just wasn't time to thaw it out). so she didn't eat for pretty much three hours and she was apparently NOT HAPPY ABOUT IT.

then when we pulled into the driveway, josh's mom called josh and said she wanted to "take a drive and talk." so he left and i went inside with nona, knowing all along that it was going to be a talk about me.

i was right.

she apparently ranted to him about how much she doesn't like me and we don't get along and how ungrateful and messy she thinks i am. she claimed that she's always cleaning up after me and that i never act grateful when they do stuff for me like taking us out to dinner or whatever. so i was really pissed because i've definitely been cleaning up after myself, and i do the dishes almost every day (but they need to be done multiple times in a day but i guess she doesn't notice).

but the first thing she got on about was how josh cleaned out the medicine cabinet and threw out a bunch of super expired medicines. he told her up front that he was the one who did it, but when they got in the car she apparently said "i know you didn't do it, i know becky did and you're just saying you did." josh FLIPPED OUT!!! he apparently told her to stop acting like a bitch (and even though i think it's horrible, josh said that sometimes the only way to deal with his mom is to really let her know you mean BUSINESS). he said "don't call me a liar. i cleaned out the medicine cabinet and you're STILL stuck on the ONE TIME becky took some expired food from the pantry and threw it away. you need to GET OVER IT!" and she started crying and he told her that her crying wouldn't get her out of having the conversation. so she pulled over and he said he was going to get out of the car and walk home unless she apologized, so she did. he told her i don't like her very much either. he also told her that in my family, being grateful is a simple heartfelt "thank you", not something that is repeatedly gushed over to the point of possibly insincerity. she thinks it's ungrateful of me to say i don't like something i order at a restaurant when they've taken us out for dinner. i think that's silly. my mom raised me with impeccable manners, and i would never do something i thought was rude or ungrateful.

so i wrote her an email because, well, i'm a wuss. i can't talk to her face to face about these things because i'm too bothered still. my emotions are way too fired up about it and i don't know if i could be completely honest and relaxed talking to her about these things. i used very positive touchy-feely "i feel" language. for example, i said "i feel like you don't see how much i actually do around the house." and "i really feel like eating better foods would greatly benefit not only my health, but nona's health." etc etc. it was a loooong email.

i don't know if she's read it or if she'll respond, but i guess we'll see. she spent all of yesterday not even looking at me or speaking to me, but today we'd come to some sort of unspoken truce i guess.

i just hope that things start to work out. if not, josh pinky swore that we can move out as soon as i get a full time job.

so that's progress, i guess.

hmm.

another day in the saga of me.

oh, but i made an extremely healthy root soup with veggies i'd never cooked with before. i used a turnip, a parsnip, and a rutabega. i threw in carrots, asparagus, bok choy, and some garlic and quinoa and voila- a very bland soup. but if i add some spices or whatever, it'll be really tasty. i'll keep at it.

then i had sauteed spinach and a tofu frittata for dinner and oreos for dessert. oh well, can't be good all the time right?:)
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