need. to. breathe.
ok..so.. i might be a little bit stressed out. i think this has been the most stressed i´ve been since this trip. in actuality, i think it´s about the same amount of stress that i would have at home, but not being completely striken with panic in about 2 months to having a list of things that i need to get done is just a shock.
i´m heartbroken with my writing. i know exactly what i want to say and how i want to say it, but when i´m actually able to sit down and write, my mind goes blank. i read back on past entries and i sound like i´m 8 years old, unable to form my thoughts the way that it´s spinning about in my head, hitting this block when it comes to going into great detail. they sound more like ¨i went to beach. it was fun.¨ as opposed to describing what actually occured, the sunset, or the weird tourists that i always have to walk by. i don´t know.
i´m trying to sign up for classes. keyword trying. it hit me the other day that i have no idea what i want in my life and i have no idea where i see myself a year from now. i know i want to take emt classes during this summer or the next, take a few english/writing classes for next semester and finish up my spanish major, but that´s about it. especially with this trip, i´ve realized how people try to map out their lives for the next year, thinking that they have some type of control with their lives, but so much change occurs between that time span that it´s nearly impossible to know where you´ll be.
i´m done ranting.
i´m going to sevilla saturday and sunday. i´m looking forward to it and i´m not. the only reason why i´m not is because it´s going to rain..and i have to be at the meeting point at 8am ::gouges eyes out:: that´s about it. other than that, i´m really looking forward to it. i´m trying to meet up with yasya, this one girl that goes to widener, and some family that i have there. the town seems wonderful and i´m hoping that maybe, just maybe, i can get a guitar there. everyone´s complaining about the three hour bus ride, but like the strange person i am, i like long drives, especially here.
yesterday i went to a contemporary art museum. it was...contemporary. i can´t really describe it. the artist had one wing that was for photographs, but the rest of the work was..uhh.. contemporary. it was more of the ¨what do you see?¨as opposed to the artist having something in mind and a point that they wanted to get across while painting it. yah. i stayed for a bit after the tour to look around for a bit and later, i went to a cafe near calle larios (this street that´s popular with tourists) with a few of the girls in the isa group.
umm yup. that´s about it. i´m taking my camera to sevilla, so i´ll be sure to post everything to facebook come monday.
hope things are going well with everyone!
i´m heartbroken with my writing. i know exactly what i want to say and how i want to say it, but when i´m actually able to sit down and write, my mind goes blank. i read back on past entries and i sound like i´m 8 years old, unable to form my thoughts the way that it´s spinning about in my head, hitting this block when it comes to going into great detail. they sound more like ¨i went to beach. it was fun.¨ as opposed to describing what actually occured, the sunset, or the weird tourists that i always have to walk by. i don´t know.
i´m trying to sign up for classes. keyword trying. it hit me the other day that i have no idea what i want in my life and i have no idea where i see myself a year from now. i know i want to take emt classes during this summer or the next, take a few english/writing classes for next semester and finish up my spanish major, but that´s about it. especially with this trip, i´ve realized how people try to map out their lives for the next year, thinking that they have some type of control with their lives, but so much change occurs between that time span that it´s nearly impossible to know where you´ll be.
i´m done ranting.
i´m going to sevilla saturday and sunday. i´m looking forward to it and i´m not. the only reason why i´m not is because it´s going to rain..and i have to be at the meeting point at 8am ::gouges eyes out:: that´s about it. other than that, i´m really looking forward to it. i´m trying to meet up with yasya, this one girl that goes to widener, and some family that i have there. the town seems wonderful and i´m hoping that maybe, just maybe, i can get a guitar there. everyone´s complaining about the three hour bus ride, but like the strange person i am, i like long drives, especially here.
yesterday i went to a contemporary art museum. it was...contemporary. i can´t really describe it. the artist had one wing that was for photographs, but the rest of the work was..uhh.. contemporary. it was more of the ¨what do you see?¨as opposed to the artist having something in mind and a point that they wanted to get across while painting it. yah. i stayed for a bit after the tour to look around for a bit and later, i went to a cafe near calle larios (this street that´s popular with tourists) with a few of the girls in the isa group.
umm yup. that´s about it. i´m taking my camera to sevilla, so i´ll be sure to post everything to facebook come monday.
hope things are going well with everyone!