Wake me up! before you go go....
So i was thinking... i wil definately start to take my own freaking advice.... i told my sister to let fate do its job, so now i'm telling myself the same thing....
If it's meant to be it will be... maybe not on my impatient timeline.. but things will happen if it really is supposed to be.. until then i should live my life... and i will live my life.. there's no reason i should be hinding out in my freaking house becuase i feel i have no life..
I know as i've known the whole time.. its just and excuse..
oh well.. no more room to complain.. i will have a serious talk with a few people back home.. hopefully one will spur their ass into gear...
If not it makes it that much longer until we meet again.. it will not always be up to me to come patch everything back together.. i'm done with that shit... or atleast i keep telling myself this... i cannot fix everything.. even if i want to...
cuz it neither helps the situation any nor makes it any more fair.. and fuck the whole "life's not fair"... life is what you make of it.. and if you or others make it unfair then don't blame life for it.. (even though i have) i think for now i'm over that..
but hey i can't say for sure... its not so easy to break a habit you acquired over the years....
But i'm gonna do my amneest to try....
If it's meant to be it will be... maybe not on my impatient timeline.. but things will happen if it really is supposed to be.. until then i should live my life... and i will live my life.. there's no reason i should be hinding out in my freaking house becuase i feel i have no life..
I know as i've known the whole time.. its just and excuse..
oh well.. no more room to complain.. i will have a serious talk with a few people back home.. hopefully one will spur their ass into gear...
If not it makes it that much longer until we meet again.. it will not always be up to me to come patch everything back together.. i'm done with that shit... or atleast i keep telling myself this... i cannot fix everything.. even if i want to...
cuz it neither helps the situation any nor makes it any more fair.. and fuck the whole "life's not fair"... life is what you make of it.. and if you or others make it unfair then don't blame life for it.. (even though i have) i think for now i'm over that..
but hey i can't say for sure... its not so easy to break a habit you acquired over the years....
But i'm gonna do my amneest to try....