Crying again and not sure why....
Yeah this is getting annoying and really bad for eye makeup (which is the only think i actually will wear regularly of that persuasion... hehe persuasion thats my nickname. Not that it matters anymore cuz i hang out withthe people who called me Sua (pronounced "Sway" and short for persuasion) anymore but i did love that nickname... I honestly think it was my favorite of any i had ever had. But thats okay. all is well on my homefront, except for a few minor details. Like i'm lonely as hell and homesick.
Yeah yeah yeah i know, i'm back on the homesick kick again. but to tell the truth i was never off of it. and you know what fuck anyone who says i'm being a whiney little brat cuz you should try doing it and see how much you miss about the life and people you had known your entire life....
Fuck all of this.
Ok calming down now. I have a tendancy to get a little um demonstrative when in a sour mood...it should be fine atleast i'm not in hysterics... that would suck cuz my mom has to wake up in an hour and she needs all the sleep she can get...
you know i was just thinking.. up until i moveout here i almost NEVER posted about my family except a slight metion to my sisters or something.. i would have seemed like i didn't have parents.. but thats only to someone who didn't know me.. cuz anyone who's hung out with me for more than a day knows my parents are a constant source of a convesational topic.. my sister's too when they get to their antic... much like my middle sister is doing now..
not good to annoy the momma Candace...
But anyways. My older sister is staying up working all hour again, so much so, that she had to take a ap at 4pm her time this aftermoon cuz she hadn't been to bed yet... on her day off (as far as i knew) what kind of shit is that... does my ENTIRE immediate family have some kind of death wish... GO TO SLEEP... you always wonder why i'm so fucking insane... well here's the scary words of warning from one psycho to the rest of you closet cases in my family... If you sleep as little as i do, you'll turn out like me too.. *scary music plays and classic horror movies scream in background as lightning strikes and thunder roars*
Anyways back to the sort of reality...
i'll post more when i feel like it.. and just so you know.. just cuz i'm depresed doesn't mean i don't care it just means its a little hard to right now....
*hugles to those that want em*
and a very big "Bite me" to those who judge based on what i have instead of what i feel... Just cuz i'm in a better place than i was finacially doesn't mean i'll be happy... so there ...*srick tongue out
Yeah yeah yeah i know, i'm back on the homesick kick again. but to tell the truth i was never off of it. and you know what fuck anyone who says i'm being a whiney little brat cuz you should try doing it and see how much you miss about the life and people you had known your entire life....
Fuck all of this.
Ok calming down now. I have a tendancy to get a little um demonstrative when in a sour mood...it should be fine atleast i'm not in hysterics... that would suck cuz my mom has to wake up in an hour and she needs all the sleep she can get...
you know i was just thinking.. up until i moveout here i almost NEVER posted about my family except a slight metion to my sisters or something.. i would have seemed like i didn't have parents.. but thats only to someone who didn't know me.. cuz anyone who's hung out with me for more than a day knows my parents are a constant source of a convesational topic.. my sister's too when they get to their antic... much like my middle sister is doing now..
not good to annoy the momma Candace...
But anyways. My older sister is staying up working all hour again, so much so, that she had to take a ap at 4pm her time this aftermoon cuz she hadn't been to bed yet... on her day off (as far as i knew) what kind of shit is that... does my ENTIRE immediate family have some kind of death wish... GO TO SLEEP... you always wonder why i'm so fucking insane... well here's the scary words of warning from one psycho to the rest of you closet cases in my family... If you sleep as little as i do, you'll turn out like me too.. *scary music plays and classic horror movies scream in background as lightning strikes and thunder roars*
Anyways back to the sort of reality...
i'll post more when i feel like it.. and just so you know.. just cuz i'm depresed doesn't mean i don't care it just means its a little hard to right now....
*hugles to those that want em*
and a very big "Bite me" to those who judge based on what i have instead of what i feel... Just cuz i'm in a better place than i was finacially doesn't mean i'll be happy... so there ...*srick tongue out