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[quixotic_pariah]

this weekend my parents are kicking me out of their house and i'm not welcome back.

i dont have a job. maybe thats my fault.
but I dont have a car anymore. that wasn't my fault.
even if i did, i don't have a license. that also really wasn't my fault.
i hardly ever see any of my friends anymore. perhaps thats my fault.
im never happy anymore. ive never been happy. and its sad that I dont have anyone to blame for it. not even myself. if i had someone to blame, i'd have an enemy... an obstacle... something in the way of my objective. i would have a reason for action. i think too abstractly.

i really want to break something.

theres a lot of anger mounting within me

if they keep it up

someone's going to die.