Back to the home you made on the mountainside
The last 10 weeks have been...interesting, at best.
I think I will have to say that 2011 has, by far, been one of the harder years. Broke up with Steve in January. Cried all of February and most of March. Fixed things by myself, sold all the furniture, cleaned up Steve's mess he left behind, found a property manager and an apartment in March.
April, moved to Cap Hill, made new friends, had the best birthday ever. Became broke from paying rent and mortgage. Got into a car accident and totaled the Mazda. May-Found renters. Bought a Subaru. Had great girls family trip to California, felt really happy. Road trip to Wyoming and SD with Zak. June-To Detroit to see my nieces and sister. Drank a lot. Cried a lot, scared for Steve to move back to AZ. Met BJ at a birthday party and did not talk to him. July-Spent a lot more time with BJ. Visit from Zach. Realized I need to drink less. August-Back to phx, really good trip, really eye-opening and melancholy on the way home. Back to school for my business degree. September-Became BJs "girlfriend" and his "ex" all in the same month. October-emotional breakdown. Stopped talking to BJ entirely, carved pumpkins and found shit to be grateful for. November-Became FWB on weekends with BJ. Dated a lot of really weird guys that never got second dates. Snowboarding, neighbor time, best Thanksgiving ever. Ate a lot of hallucinogenic mushrooms. December-in progress. Got a 4.0 for the semester. This is the first year in seven years that I have been single on Christmas. BJ called me "boo" Monday and yesterday. I don't want to repeat this pattern. Supposed to get lots of snow tonight in Denver, still none in the mountains which is serious bullshit. Mom comes tomorrow. I wish I was more excited for the holidays.
I think I will have to say that 2011 has, by far, been one of the harder years. Broke up with Steve in January. Cried all of February and most of March. Fixed things by myself, sold all the furniture, cleaned up Steve's mess he left behind, found a property manager and an apartment in March.
April, moved to Cap Hill, made new friends, had the best birthday ever. Became broke from paying rent and mortgage. Got into a car accident and totaled the Mazda. May-Found renters. Bought a Subaru. Had great girls family trip to California, felt really happy. Road trip to Wyoming and SD with Zak. June-To Detroit to see my nieces and sister. Drank a lot. Cried a lot, scared for Steve to move back to AZ. Met BJ at a birthday party and did not talk to him. July-Spent a lot more time with BJ. Visit from Zach. Realized I need to drink less. August-Back to phx, really good trip, really eye-opening and melancholy on the way home. Back to school for my business degree. September-Became BJs "girlfriend" and his "ex" all in the same month. October-emotional breakdown. Stopped talking to BJ entirely, carved pumpkins and found shit to be grateful for. November-Became FWB on weekends with BJ. Dated a lot of really weird guys that never got second dates. Snowboarding, neighbor time, best Thanksgiving ever. Ate a lot of hallucinogenic mushrooms. December-in progress. Got a 4.0 for the semester. This is the first year in seven years that I have been single on Christmas. BJ called me "boo" Monday and yesterday. I don't want to repeat this pattern. Supposed to get lots of snow tonight in Denver, still none in the mountains which is serious bullshit. Mom comes tomorrow. I wish I was more excited for the holidays.