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Well, since I'm making $150 in about four to five hours working for Dave, I quit NHCD. It's just too time consuming and not lucrative enough for the additional stress of three jobs. Two like this is fine, and I actually wrote my resume, and will check around for some extra temp PT telemarketing job to eventually supplement so I can still accomplish my plan--getting away from Chili's.
I'm so stoked though--I totally booked Phil last week and Dave this week by today, so I have the whole day and night off--no jobs to go to, not even any laundry to do. Means I might actually have time to clean my bathroom! Happy happy joy joy.
Sean emailed me the other night. Made my heart twinge.
[i]sooooo....I be making lottso monney!!!
Of course I'm in HELL....but that's ok...I've been here before...something so familiar...
I remember now why I left the sunshine state...I prefer darkness.
then again...[/i]
Sean was such an anomaly of a man. He had so much depth, and was so quiet, you'd never know it, unless you really knew him. I miss him sometimes. Things were very easy with him compared to Chad. Not nearly so tempestuous.
Reminds me, I haven't spoken to Mikey or Brian in awhile. Is it masochistic of me to cling to my past lovers the way I do? Is it unfair to Chad that I remain in contact with them, that I am always driven to check up on them and make sure those men I still love are doing okay? And to ache for them when I receive something of this nature, wishing I had something to offer Sean as comfort.
My many boys.
Haven't heard from Lance either, though that doesn't surprise me. I think I'll write him a letter and just get it delivered to him. I was hoping for more of an opportunity to pick his brain before going into all the serious shit going on, but then, as the song says, we don't always get what we want.
We filed the papers requesting I be given sole custody of Scarlett, Jane should have received them Monday. Oddly, though, she didn't say anything about it last night, and just went on acting as though nothing ever happened. I doubt it will continue on so easy. Maybe her lawyer advised her not to do anything else to damage their case, since we've already got proof of her trying to commit fraud on the court through an email she sent me. Will that triviality be enough to piss off the judge into giving me back my daughter? We'll see.
Yesterday I signed up for the driver's ed class I have to take to get my permit, and also signed up for a two year GED College Prep course. Obviously, I'll be able to take the GED before then--I'm pretty much using it to get some help with my math. Aside from that though, I'll probably keep up with my class while waiting for to register for college, to get me back into the groove of doing assignments and school work, etc. It's been over a decade, after all.
I think I've finally made up my mind about what to study. I want to get a doctorate in Humanities. That would be the cat's meow. Now all I gotta do is work, go into debt, and somehow find a way to juggle school with family and work. Thousands of other women do it, goddamn it, I can too.
Okay, I've done some catching up here, I'm gonna go work on my traffic school class.
In blood w/luv,
qj
I'm so stoked though--I totally booked Phil last week and Dave this week by today, so I have the whole day and night off--no jobs to go to, not even any laundry to do. Means I might actually have time to clean my bathroom! Happy happy joy joy.
Sean emailed me the other night. Made my heart twinge.
[i]sooooo....I be making lottso monney!!!
Of course I'm in HELL....but that's ok...I've been here before...something so familiar...
I remember now why I left the sunshine state...I prefer darkness.
then again...[/i]
Sean was such an anomaly of a man. He had so much depth, and was so quiet, you'd never know it, unless you really knew him. I miss him sometimes. Things were very easy with him compared to Chad. Not nearly so tempestuous.
Reminds me, I haven't spoken to Mikey or Brian in awhile. Is it masochistic of me to cling to my past lovers the way I do? Is it unfair to Chad that I remain in contact with them, that I am always driven to check up on them and make sure those men I still love are doing okay? And to ache for them when I receive something of this nature, wishing I had something to offer Sean as comfort.
My many boys.
Haven't heard from Lance either, though that doesn't surprise me. I think I'll write him a letter and just get it delivered to him. I was hoping for more of an opportunity to pick his brain before going into all the serious shit going on, but then, as the song says, we don't always get what we want.
We filed the papers requesting I be given sole custody of Scarlett, Jane should have received them Monday. Oddly, though, she didn't say anything about it last night, and just went on acting as though nothing ever happened. I doubt it will continue on so easy. Maybe her lawyer advised her not to do anything else to damage their case, since we've already got proof of her trying to commit fraud on the court through an email she sent me. Will that triviality be enough to piss off the judge into giving me back my daughter? We'll see.
Yesterday I signed up for the driver's ed class I have to take to get my permit, and also signed up for a two year GED College Prep course. Obviously, I'll be able to take the GED before then--I'm pretty much using it to get some help with my math. Aside from that though, I'll probably keep up with my class while waiting for to register for college, to get me back into the groove of doing assignments and school work, etc. It's been over a decade, after all.
I think I've finally made up my mind about what to study. I want to get a doctorate in Humanities. That would be the cat's meow. Now all I gotta do is work, go into debt, and somehow find a way to juggle school with family and work. Thousands of other women do it, goddamn it, I can too.
Okay, I've done some catching up here, I'm gonna go work on my traffic school class.
In blood w/luv,
qj