Drabble. KyuMin
I know that I said Blood would be next, but then this popped up in my head. But I'll definitely post a chapter today.
Title Swallow
Rating PG-13
Pairing KyuMin? (Kyuhyun and Sungmin)
Summary The road to recovery leads to bulimia. lots of repetition.
Notes Inspired by the fact that SUJU IS DISAPPEARING SLOWLY. ;o;
swallow
He says, "We'll start small. We'll start small, okay?" and you wonder what that means. A cracker a day? It's better than nothing, you think.
You discover that the road to recovery is long and unwanted, but he keeps pulling you along, offering you an apple from which you take one small bite, peach wedges that you shove down the sink in the kitchen, lettuce that you shred and hide under a layer of dirt from the potted plants in the apartment, anything. "We'll start small," he said.
Sungmin doesn't understand that the problem isn't the food; it's the fucking mirrors in the bathrooms and practice studios. In them you can see just how far you need to go. Just a few more pounds, maybe. Just a few.
Sometimes, Sungmin lays against your chest at night and cries, wet tears falling onto your shirt.
"Why won't you just eat something, Kyuhyun? Anything! For my sake," the older boy says one night. "I refuse to watch you disappear."
Super Junior goes out for dinner the next night, and Sungmin keeps a vice grip on your wrist until you are seated at a table in the restaurant and you've ordered a bowl of noodle soup. He looks at you triumphantly when the waiter walks away. "For my sake," he said that night. You manage four bites before you gag.
Sungmin looks at you with something like hurt in his eyes. For his sake, you keep swallowing.
Later, when everyone has returned to the apartment, you run the shower in the bathroom and vomit as quietly as you can over the U-bend of the toilet. Just a few pounds, maybe.
Sungmin doesn't notice that anything's wrong. "I'm happy for you," he says genuinely, curling into you under the covers on the bed. "See? We'll start small. The food didn't kill you, now, right? Maybe I'll ask Hankyung to cook something special for you tomorrow. Something light."
You smile. For his sake, you'll swallow.
end
[AN] the usual. comments and concrit appreciated. and anorexia and bulimia are serious, and not good for you, so don't do it. :O
love,
quix.
Title Swallow
Rating PG-13
Pairing KyuMin? (Kyuhyun and Sungmin)
Summary The road to recovery leads to bulimia. lots of repetition.
Notes Inspired by the fact that SUJU IS DISAPPEARING SLOWLY. ;o;
swallow
He says, "We'll start small. We'll start small, okay?" and you wonder what that means. A cracker a day? It's better than nothing, you think.
You discover that the road to recovery is long and unwanted, but he keeps pulling you along, offering you an apple from which you take one small bite, peach wedges that you shove down the sink in the kitchen, lettuce that you shred and hide under a layer of dirt from the potted plants in the apartment, anything. "We'll start small," he said.
Sungmin doesn't understand that the problem isn't the food; it's the fucking mirrors in the bathrooms and practice studios. In them you can see just how far you need to go. Just a few more pounds, maybe. Just a few.
Sometimes, Sungmin lays against your chest at night and cries, wet tears falling onto your shirt.
"Why won't you just eat something, Kyuhyun? Anything! For my sake," the older boy says one night. "I refuse to watch you disappear."
Super Junior goes out for dinner the next night, and Sungmin keeps a vice grip on your wrist until you are seated at a table in the restaurant and you've ordered a bowl of noodle soup. He looks at you triumphantly when the waiter walks away. "For my sake," he said that night. You manage four bites before you gag.
Sungmin looks at you with something like hurt in his eyes. For his sake, you keep swallowing.
Later, when everyone has returned to the apartment, you run the shower in the bathroom and vomit as quietly as you can over the U-bend of the toilet. Just a few pounds, maybe.
Sungmin doesn't notice that anything's wrong. "I'm happy for you," he says genuinely, curling into you under the covers on the bed. "See? We'll start small. The food didn't kill you, now, right? Maybe I'll ask Hankyung to cook something special for you tomorrow. Something light."
You smile. For his sake, you'll swallow.
end
[AN] the usual. comments and concrit appreciated. and anorexia and bulimia are serious, and not good for you, so don't do it. :O
love,
quix.