week from hell update
Just had that awkward realization that Christmas is going to be different this year because one of the people who is always there, that I'm always supposed to see, is dead. That "oh I'll be able to see her on Chr- ...wait nevermind" thought.
I stopped obsessing over study abroad stuff a little while ago. Summer classes go up December 15, and by that time, I should have all my grades and everything so I'll know what's realistic and what isn't. Applications aren't due until March, anyway. I definitely want to do something this summer; whether it be internship, abroad, or summer classes. So even if I do manage to do horrible this semester, I should be able to bring my GPA up next semester, or this summer if I have to, and hopefully be able to do Auckland in spring 2011.
This week has been hell. People are calling it the week from hell, and it's caught on. Normally I only have to worry about school 3x a week, but I have a full 5 day schedule for now. The huge mechanics project that makes or breaks our grade is due. Write up is due tonight at 5, and we build and test our truss for tomorrow. I did so much of the write up and am allowing/expecting/forcing my partner to finish. To be honest, I didn't leave too much for her. She felt bad that she wasn't doing much and she needs the A more than I do, so I'm confident we'll do fine. The testing on Saturday though is stupid. It's a Saturday! But once that's done, we're at the last week of classes. Now that's crazy. I can see the end.. and then I'm allowing myself to get back into that obsessive planning and figuring out life mode.