Hawaii
Traveling alone is fun. I don't regret the last few trips that I took by myself and I'm glad I am in a position where I can afford these luxuries. They say that when you are ready to do something, truly ready, you will put your life intention towards it and manifest it. I don't know who they is and I don't even know if any of that is true. I guess it was true that I wanted to travel and I did it..successfully. But even, to find a relationship with a person you know you want to marry? Who decides when you get to settle with a person and why? The absurdity cuts me like a knife.
What I do know is that I am ready to do these things with a partner again and it is only recently (in the midst of a very messy fling) that I realized that I don't want messy flings or flings at all and that all of my intent should be put towards being the person I want to be in a relationship and then allowing this to guide me to the right person.
During my trip to Hawaii, I ran into so many situations where it would have been nice to lean on someone only to find that I had to lean on myself 99% of the time. It would be nice not to do this or to be the benefactor of multiple situationships that end in conflicting feelings and disappointment. I suppose relationships carry their own disappointment but I rarely regret those.