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I have really been doing some soul searching lately. Asking myself is this where I belong? Is this where I am happy? Is this the place that I am supposed to be. And to be honest, I'm not sure anymore. I have grown up more, but here's the question. Is making everyone else happy healthy for you? And I don't think it is. The truth is, I'm not perfect. I'm not sweet and nice all the time. I have done mean and/or stupid things.
I really didn't feel like I had many options until I talked to Lysia. I may be eligible for more money now because of my epilepsy, where Voc Rehab is concerned. They also have seizure alert dogs that could be a possibility if I ever wanted to live alone again. And maybe I might be able to live on dorm. I mean, it's not truly what I want, but maybe it would be good for me. I mean the one vice that I had, they tell me could but me into a seizure. So, I'm not going to party like a rock star if I think it's going to hurt me. But these are not drastic ideas yet, they are just thoughts. Things might get better eventually.
It's not school here. It's home. It's the denial. It's the lonliness. It's the medicine. And it's all whirling around inside me and making me sad.
I really didn't feel like I had many options until I talked to Lysia. I may be eligible for more money now because of my epilepsy, where Voc Rehab is concerned. They also have seizure alert dogs that could be a possibility if I ever wanted to live alone again. And maybe I might be able to live on dorm. I mean, it's not truly what I want, but maybe it would be good for me. I mean the one vice that I had, they tell me could but me into a seizure. So, I'm not going to party like a rock star if I think it's going to hurt me. But these are not drastic ideas yet, they are just thoughts. Things might get better eventually.
It's not school here. It's home. It's the denial. It's the lonliness. It's the medicine. And it's all whirling around inside me and making me sad.