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[quirkirky]

i am so just, just down. i cant even explain all of it. everything seems to be just pressing down on me and i am so afriad to go to that dark place again. fuck. why do things affect me like this and i dont know how to fix it. i was okay until this year and now i feel like i did when i was 16 and that scares me, because i just want to stop now. i

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[ethereal_maiden]

Hey, trust me, I know how you feel. And I know that there isn't much that I can say to help you because when you are in that place nothing anyone says matters. However, you should know that I am your best friend and I love you dearly. If anything were ever to happen to you I would die a little inside. So, if you ever feel that you are too depressed and (don't be offended by this if there might be some reason that you would be) if you ever feel like you might hurt yourself or even CONSIDER hurting yourself CALL ME! I will then command you very authoritatively that it is a bad decision because I will kick your ass if you do. You and I have a future planned out... living in Tuscany with your baby after I get divorced and sitting on a porch somewhere being crafty in our old age. That should be plenty to motivate you to keep going! :D Once again I love you so much and just think... the next time you are happy it will be all the better because you can compare it to this. (that whole there is no light without dark cliche)

Seriously... if you really need me I will jump in my car at a moments notice and be there in less than 8 hours even if I get a million speeding tickets.