Sep 30, 2004 14:16
I've been online for hours, reading shit. and i just keep crying. i wish i had a better understanding of what was going on. But maybe the problem is that i do understand, and the knowledge makes it all worse.
This whole lj thing boggles my mind at times like this; There are many people i don't particularily want to share this with, but i can't seem to write anywhere else.
I wanted to go to Brampton this weekend, but it's probably better that i'm not. Being around my parents is making me feel way too vulnerable right now. Gotta see them for thanksgiving anyway.
I feel weak, all around these days. The crying is too much. and the pain. It's taking a lot of sleep just to function. I feel so pathetic. and old. and dependant.
i need to finish my laundry