blue flowers
you arent there any more. you. reminding me of my mortality. you are gone. and I just wanted to see you. you promised me you would be there. and you werent FUCK YOU. but I dont mean it. FUCK you because I hurt. all the tears that fell that day, they towed you out to sea. the pit of my stomach pulling me to the center of the earth. I dont know why it happen. I rejoice that you have such balls to do it. but I still driven by my selfish desires to be in your company. you are much braver than I. Or maybe you just knew more than me. or maybe you know its just down hill from there. no more ups no more downs. the singlarity that defines who you are now. and I write in this database filled with ones and zeros filled to the ceiling for what? a few meager people to know how I feel? for a few people to tell me its going to be okay?
fuck it. I am so close.
fuck it. I am so close.