Feel like having an accent
Its one of those nights. Actually its been one of those days, offsetting...if thats even a word. There are halos around traffic lights, streams beating lightly from the center. Driving in the middle of night is one of the best feelings, no one on the road- like youre the only person on earth. Never having to wait for others to make a stupid move. It would be a weird day to say I planned all the events that happened, or maybe even weirder if i didnt, but such is life. How odd are people and their lives, how each is so intensely different.
Im starting to get a little annoyed. At more than one thing, or things/people. It's hard to tell exactly what they want out from me, if anything at all. Weird european films, cigarette smoke, bad mexican food, odd moods- it all comes down to a not dissapointing, but reflecting day.
Is it sad or maybe even stupid to say, in times like these I dont know what I want out of life? I might as well be religious, though I am highly agnostic...maybe even a little atheist. It's tiring living such a straight life, always trying to do the best thing for yourself. It might sound strange- but I dont know if I want to be that anymore. I dont know where I want to be in five years...I fucking hate planning. Planning is such a boring way to map out your life in safe plans...but I do it all the time. I get a little psycho if the plans arent straight.
To say the least I am tired, exhausted, but cant fall asleep. This is where the tossing and turning, the cold sweats, and headaches arrive. Im having a midlife crisis in my teens. This is suppose to be the best times of my life and all I can say is Im not satisfied. Where does this leave me? Hopeless, until I see the light shine from something to distantly look forward to.
As of now, I dont know what I want...and it scares me.
but I kind of like the feeling.
Im starting to get a little annoyed. At more than one thing, or things/people. It's hard to tell exactly what they want out from me, if anything at all. Weird european films, cigarette smoke, bad mexican food, odd moods- it all comes down to a not dissapointing, but reflecting day.
Is it sad or maybe even stupid to say, in times like these I dont know what I want out of life? I might as well be religious, though I am highly agnostic...maybe even a little atheist. It's tiring living such a straight life, always trying to do the best thing for yourself. It might sound strange- but I dont know if I want to be that anymore. I dont know where I want to be in five years...I fucking hate planning. Planning is such a boring way to map out your life in safe plans...but I do it all the time. I get a little psycho if the plans arent straight.
To say the least I am tired, exhausted, but cant fall asleep. This is where the tossing and turning, the cold sweats, and headaches arrive. Im having a midlife crisis in my teens. This is suppose to be the best times of my life and all I can say is Im not satisfied. Where does this leave me? Hopeless, until I see the light shine from something to distantly look forward to.
As of now, I dont know what I want...and it scares me.
but I kind of like the feeling.