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-Hide the scars to fade away the shakeup-
Yesterday was alright. After school, I walked to Marcs house and we chilled there. Than, we went to the Library so he can help me with my fucken Social Studies because I'm not good at it. So, Fred, Mandi, Calan, and Chris picked me up to go out to eat. I really wanted to stay with Marcus, but I left and gave him a kiss good-bye. We went out to Wendy's and I got Chili, and some fries. Before we left, I really wanted a Frosty. And, I was about to get one. Until Fred was like, "No! I need to go home right now!" It's like flip out right? Anyway, we went home did nothing. Except later my Mom comes home and bitches at me for not coming straight home for the past 2 days. Well, you wonder fucken why. So, she grounds me over the weekend. Marcus and I had a pretty good planned weekend too, and she fucked it up. As you can tell, I don't like my Mother. Ofcourse, I love her. But, I really do not like her at all. She doesn't trust me, and just cause she's been threw hell in her life and been threw alot of shit doesn't mean she needs to put it in my life. She thinks I'm just some bad kid, and she thinks I'm selfish. I'm like what the fuck? You really don't know anything about me, and she really doesn't to tell you the truth. She thinks she is all smart, and cool. Too bad your not. She expects me to be something, I'm not. There is so much other shit, but it's just dumb. But, little shit always pisses me off with her. She made me cry, but telling me all these things she thinks she knows about me. But, today Marcus walked me home. Kind of. He ran into a friend, so I just stood there. I saw Heather, and Justin and said hello. They were showing me pictures, and videos on there digital camera video thing. Alot of the shit was random, shit I would do. So, as Marcus was done talking to his friend... I was done talking to my friends. So he walked me a few blocks, because he had to be home to help his Dad or some shit. So I held him in my arms, and did everything I could to tell him it's going to be alright. I'm saying this because, yeah he is older than me. And, I just hope my Mom doesn't make it so we can't even date. I mean I dated Joe, and he is 18 now. And, she also wanted me to date Andy Shely, who by the way is 18. And, she confuses me. More, and more everyday. Sometimes I try to get out, but I can't. And, I try to leave... but it's always holding me back. I mean, I'm happier now than I was like 3 weeks ago. And, I'm glad I got out of the depression. But, I just need to be happy. And, no I don't care what others think. And, I know you can call me anything. Good, I'm glad you guys have a life. Talking shit about me. It's weird, just cause I changed. I mean, if you people only knew......