i guess im just emo for the day
i dont really know what to say. im so depressing at the moment. my dad says with live you save on to the nuggets and look for new ones. i just dont think it was ever going to end. i love 3 people right now. i think they might know who they are. i really love them. like hardcore. not in love mind you but loving them so out of control that i wish i was with them. and there are 6 (ltkjtc) people i want to be with more than anyone else at all right now. but alas when you are a teenager you cant sleep where ever you want to as tatton would put it. i guess im just emo for today. huh...good title.
i took a moment there to type in the title.
i kept all my costume and signed one shoe and put quotes on the other.
i dont think ill ever feel happy again.
i miss godspell and i miss moby dick.
i have started all these paragraphs with i. but i dont know if i care enough to be upset or make an effort to make myself not self centered as i would in other instances. i think i always try to grow.
i gave my cousin life advice today. i dont ever think im qualified for that but i try to be strong and smart when leading others...cuz they need to hear someone with out doubts. it gives them something to look up to. which i like.
so today when i was dying i was like i cant cry anymore or i have to be strong for my deciples. or at least that is what i tell myself. but then i thought today...it is their time to be strong for themselves...i like that.
life is complicated. but friends get me through. i think with out friends i couldnt even stand life. so as stupid as i may be at times, i just want you guys to stand with me. thats all i ask. ill change but back me up. ill grow just know it maybe a sec. just be there for me...that what i want...buh im ready for life and not this shit. i wish i could just be singing.
-Jesus no longer.
i took a moment there to type in the title.
i kept all my costume and signed one shoe and put quotes on the other.
i dont think ill ever feel happy again.
i miss godspell and i miss moby dick.
i have started all these paragraphs with i. but i dont know if i care enough to be upset or make an effort to make myself not self centered as i would in other instances. i think i always try to grow.
i gave my cousin life advice today. i dont ever think im qualified for that but i try to be strong and smart when leading others...cuz they need to hear someone with out doubts. it gives them something to look up to. which i like.
so today when i was dying i was like i cant cry anymore or i have to be strong for my deciples. or at least that is what i tell myself. but then i thought today...it is their time to be strong for themselves...i like that.
life is complicated. but friends get me through. i think with out friends i couldnt even stand life. so as stupid as i may be at times, i just want you guys to stand with me. thats all i ask. ill change but back me up. ill grow just know it maybe a sec. just be there for me...that what i want...buh im ready for life and not this shit. i wish i could just be singing.
-Jesus no longer.