My Sentiments Exactly
This morning in New Testament Greek, Paul bumbled in, late as usual.
"This is our last week of college ever, Paul!"
"Aww, that's fucked up."
I pretty much feel the same way. People keep asking me if I'm excited to be graduating, but mostly I find the whole prospect very unnerving, stressful, and anticlimactic. Actually, I really hate being reminded that I'm graduating, and I can't stand being asked how I feel about it, and I never know if I should answer people honestly or tell them what they want to hear. Graduating from college is an accomplishment, and I suppose I am glad to have done so well and gotten so far, but I'd also be happy with scrapping the commencement ceremony (yes, I know I could have just not participated, but I didn't have the heart to disappoint my mom like that). It's a bunch of pomp and silliness, and everyone has to roast out in the sun. I paid $60 for a damn cap and gown today, too, and now I have just a measly $25 to last me until payday.
I'm not comfortable with having grown up so fast, I don't want to move on to the next big thing, and I wish time would just slow the hell down. Also, I have absolutely no desire to work on my thesis, which needs to get done in two weeks.
I suppose I am a bit happy to be graduating, considering all the bullshit I won't have to deal with after - or at least, the SCU flavor of bullshit. Perhaps that's why it's hard for me to get into the whole graduation thing. SCU was not my 1st choice for college, and I have found the school to be lacking in many areas; also, I viewed college as a step on the way to law school, not as the completion of my formal education. Besides, thousands and thousands of undergrads roll off the assembly line each year; I don't really feel as though my graduation is anything special. It seems like we're making an awfully big fuss over something that isn't really all that significant.
"This is our last week of college ever, Paul!"
"Aww, that's fucked up."
I pretty much feel the same way. People keep asking me if I'm excited to be graduating, but mostly I find the whole prospect very unnerving, stressful, and anticlimactic. Actually, I really hate being reminded that I'm graduating, and I can't stand being asked how I feel about it, and I never know if I should answer people honestly or tell them what they want to hear. Graduating from college is an accomplishment, and I suppose I am glad to have done so well and gotten so far, but I'd also be happy with scrapping the commencement ceremony (yes, I know I could have just not participated, but I didn't have the heart to disappoint my mom like that). It's a bunch of pomp and silliness, and everyone has to roast out in the sun. I paid $60 for a damn cap and gown today, too, and now I have just a measly $25 to last me until payday.
I'm not comfortable with having grown up so fast, I don't want to move on to the next big thing, and I wish time would just slow the hell down. Also, I have absolutely no desire to work on my thesis, which needs to get done in two weeks.
I suppose I am a bit happy to be graduating, considering all the bullshit I won't have to deal with after - or at least, the SCU flavor of bullshit. Perhaps that's why it's hard for me to get into the whole graduation thing. SCU was not my 1st choice for college, and I have found the school to be lacking in many areas; also, I viewed college as a step on the way to law school, not as the completion of my formal education. Besides, thousands and thousands of undergrads roll off the assembly line each year; I don't really feel as though my graduation is anything special. It seems like we're making an awfully big fuss over something that isn't really all that significant.