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it's stupid that i feel i have no purpose or worth without her. i wake up and i don't know what to do with myself. why am i online, why am i awake, why the fuck do i exist if not for her? is she even thinking about me? has she thought of me once since last time we spoke? i just hope she's okay. it kills me not knowing how she is.
hmm. going to the doctor today. the normal... doctor. then the... other one. a new one. lara's taking me. she's... great.
do do do..
edit: went to the doctor. hmm had to have a blood test and stuff. i don't know what the fuck they're testing for, "just to make sure". i think he explained but i ...was out of it. went to the ...thingy. new lady. she seems nice. i started having a bit of a spazzy anxiety attack and... yeah. i'll get better, i swear.
purplemonkeydishwasher, people. purplemonkeydishwasher.
hmm. going to the doctor today. the normal... doctor. then the... other one. a new one. lara's taking me. she's... great.
do do do..
edit: went to the doctor. hmm had to have a blood test and stuff. i don't know what the fuck they're testing for, "just to make sure". i think he explained but i ...was out of it. went to the ...thingy. new lady. she seems nice. i started having a bit of a spazzy anxiety attack and... yeah. i'll get better, i swear.
purplemonkeydishwasher, people. purplemonkeydishwasher.