Brain Dump
So, this is what is on my mind today.
- the basement
- my physical condition
- friendships and former friends
- comfort
Those of you who are on facebook know that I had a nasty earlier this week. It was icy out, and I went around the pothole full of ice and hit some black ice I couldn't see - I landed out in the street, with my arm on the curb. Not one person stopped to help me and see if I was ok. I wasn't. I hadn't broken anything, but I dislocated my knee joint and kneecap in opposite directions, and knocked out my left elbow, both hips and a shoulder, among other things. So i'm in a lot of pain. It's frustrating to me as I have so much I want to get done but can't do a lot of things yet.
I worked at home Thursday and Friday due to the large amount of snow and ice we had. It has been a long time, 5+ years, since we've had that much snow.
I've been trying valiantly to get another few bags of trash out of the basement. I just want all of the stuff GONE. There is just so much stuff down there, it is piled, no one can find anything, my sewing area is covered with Christmas stuff that didn't get put away... GAH! I am trying to get a few bags a week out of there and convinced Mom and Dad to get rid of a bunch of old furniture they were saving for my brother and I that neither one of us WANT even if we did move out into a starter home - it is awful, and so broken that we would have to spend more to repair it than it is worth. We will have so much more room with 3 dressers and a bedstead out of the basement! I want to be able to use my sewing area, and we have plans to make an area for my brother and I to hook up our old game system, and create a comfy downstairs space of our own.
Next step is to figure out how to store what we are keeping so that we can find it... once the washer is repaired (the drain needs to be rooted out, but can't do that until we get the piles around it clean. We're going to clean all of the old books off of the shelf that nobody's touched in 20 years, and put all of the board games there, freeing up our hall closet to function as a hall closet - shocking, I know! I just want to get rid of the stuff we don't use.
I am going through my room again, and the box of stuff that I had saved when I purged my stuff from A will be gone through to see what I want to get rid of and what to keep - I appreciate now why I was told to do that rather than pitch stuff while the breakup was fresh. Maybe someday i'll even forget who gave it to me.
A made a valiant attempt to get us to talk to her, her cousin died of an overdose, and she left us messages to call her, not explaining why, just that something was wrong and we needed to call her - nobody did. I knew her cousin and was not at all surprised, and will send her mom/aunt a condolence card this week, but that is it. C is talking to A but doesn't want to see her, and she told her to tell J and me not to bother, because "it won't fix things between us" It just shows that she still thinks the world revolves around her. I'm so, so glad that the first step has been taken away from all that.
This weekend's "do something for myself" involves cleaning the crap out of my room, putting clean sheets on my bed, and creating a space for me. I'm deciding whether or not to keep things, what works and what doesn't. I know I will be happier if I have a clean and organized space to call my own, that reflects my taste. I'm surprising myself with what i'm deciding, really. Check out "My room" on my pinterest... or suggest something you think I might like! http://pinterest.com/beckystl/
- the basement
- my physical condition
- friendships and former friends
- comfort
Those of you who are on facebook know that I had a nasty earlier this week. It was icy out, and I went around the pothole full of ice and hit some black ice I couldn't see - I landed out in the street, with my arm on the curb. Not one person stopped to help me and see if I was ok. I wasn't. I hadn't broken anything, but I dislocated my knee joint and kneecap in opposite directions, and knocked out my left elbow, both hips and a shoulder, among other things. So i'm in a lot of pain. It's frustrating to me as I have so much I want to get done but can't do a lot of things yet.
I worked at home Thursday and Friday due to the large amount of snow and ice we had. It has been a long time, 5+ years, since we've had that much snow.
I've been trying valiantly to get another few bags of trash out of the basement. I just want all of the stuff GONE. There is just so much stuff down there, it is piled, no one can find anything, my sewing area is covered with Christmas stuff that didn't get put away... GAH! I am trying to get a few bags a week out of there and convinced Mom and Dad to get rid of a bunch of old furniture they were saving for my brother and I that neither one of us WANT even if we did move out into a starter home - it is awful, and so broken that we would have to spend more to repair it than it is worth. We will have so much more room with 3 dressers and a bedstead out of the basement! I want to be able to use my sewing area, and we have plans to make an area for my brother and I to hook up our old game system, and create a comfy downstairs space of our own.
Next step is to figure out how to store what we are keeping so that we can find it... once the washer is repaired (the drain needs to be rooted out, but can't do that until we get the piles around it clean. We're going to clean all of the old books off of the shelf that nobody's touched in 20 years, and put all of the board games there, freeing up our hall closet to function as a hall closet - shocking, I know! I just want to get rid of the stuff we don't use.
I am going through my room again, and the box of stuff that I had saved when I purged my stuff from A will be gone through to see what I want to get rid of and what to keep - I appreciate now why I was told to do that rather than pitch stuff while the breakup was fresh. Maybe someday i'll even forget who gave it to me.
A made a valiant attempt to get us to talk to her, her cousin died of an overdose, and she left us messages to call her, not explaining why, just that something was wrong and we needed to call her - nobody did. I knew her cousin and was not at all surprised, and will send her mom/aunt a condolence card this week, but that is it. C is talking to A but doesn't want to see her, and she told her to tell J and me not to bother, because "it won't fix things between us" It just shows that she still thinks the world revolves around her. I'm so, so glad that the first step has been taken away from all that.
This weekend's "do something for myself" involves cleaning the crap out of my room, putting clean sheets on my bed, and creating a space for me. I'm deciding whether or not to keep things, what works and what doesn't. I know I will be happier if I have a clean and organized space to call my own, that reflects my taste. I'm surprising myself with what i'm deciding, really. Check out "My room" on my pinterest... or suggest something you think I might like! http://pinterest.com/beckystl/