Time keeps moving right along.
School is almost here! I'm now working my permanent (well, for now) schedule at the bank after completing the 6 week (re)training session. I'm finding that the transition is not too jarring-- while some things have changed, ultimately it is still the job that I remember having when I started in the banking industry. I'm a customer service grunt. And that's perfectly fine with me; I'm lucky enough to be able to hang my headset in my cube at the end of the day and leave the job with no nagging worries. No work email, no laptop, no Blackberry and certainly no off-hour calls asking me to do whatever.
Unfortunately, working these newer hours will temporarily put a crimp in whatever small amount of socializing I'm able to do, especially after fall semester classes start next week. My Thursday meetings with the grove will need to be put on hold, until at least December most likely until I can jockey into a more flexible schedule in 5 months. I may be able to make one or two meetings during a holiday weekend or when classes aren't meeting, but it will most likely be December until I can get to the meetings again. I will see them all for rituals (they're usually held on the weekends), I just won't see them quite as much as before.
I keep reminding myself that all of this effort (energetically, financially and emotionally) will pay off in the end. There are times when I'm in the middle of the semester when I wonder, "Why the hell am I doing this to myself?", but then visualize having a job where I can truly make a difference in people's lives, the environment and be a part of the force that finally jostles society from the business as usual mentality into one that moves humanity forward. This keeps me motivated to keep going. I will not let anyone or anything stop me from taking my life in the direction I want to go. I WILL NOT BE STOPPED.
I'm also starting to position myself to get ready for the grueling schedule for the next four months. I'm getting the apartment organized and cleaned out so that I'm not mentally cluttered by the chores remaining to do around the house. I will use this coming weekend to tie up all the loose ends. I'm also cutting back on the internet social media sites (like Facebook, Myspace, etc...). If you've sent me application invites, etc... don't be offended if they get ignored or deleted. I just don't have the time to devote to it any longer. I'm even in the process of closing my beloved virtual farm on Farmville on Facebook. It's just too much of a time suck. I'll check in every so often and if you message me on Facebook or Twitter, I'll get the message and will send a quick reply back! I just won't have much time to write back anything involved. But I will respond.
So, there you have it. The summer was tumultuous, but the strife I had to work through ended up centering me and putting me in a better place, where I'll be able to succeed and finally get me on the way towards meeting my personal goals..
And it's been way too long since I've written anything here. I plan on doing at least one update a week. I'm finding this very cathartic.
Unfortunately, working these newer hours will temporarily put a crimp in whatever small amount of socializing I'm able to do, especially after fall semester classes start next week. My Thursday meetings with the grove will need to be put on hold, until at least December most likely until I can jockey into a more flexible schedule in 5 months. I may be able to make one or two meetings during a holiday weekend or when classes aren't meeting, but it will most likely be December until I can get to the meetings again. I will see them all for rituals (they're usually held on the weekends), I just won't see them quite as much as before.
I keep reminding myself that all of this effort (energetically, financially and emotionally) will pay off in the end. There are times when I'm in the middle of the semester when I wonder, "Why the hell am I doing this to myself?", but then visualize having a job where I can truly make a difference in people's lives, the environment and be a part of the force that finally jostles society from the business as usual mentality into one that moves humanity forward. This keeps me motivated to keep going. I will not let anyone or anything stop me from taking my life in the direction I want to go. I WILL NOT BE STOPPED.
I'm also starting to position myself to get ready for the grueling schedule for the next four months. I'm getting the apartment organized and cleaned out so that I'm not mentally cluttered by the chores remaining to do around the house. I will use this coming weekend to tie up all the loose ends. I'm also cutting back on the internet social media sites (like Facebook, Myspace, etc...). If you've sent me application invites, etc... don't be offended if they get ignored or deleted. I just don't have the time to devote to it any longer. I'm even in the process of closing my beloved virtual farm on Farmville on Facebook. It's just too much of a time suck. I'll check in every so often and if you message me on Facebook or Twitter, I'll get the message and will send a quick reply back! I just won't have much time to write back anything involved. But I will respond.
So, there you have it. The summer was tumultuous, but the strife I had to work through ended up centering me and putting me in a better place, where I'll be able to succeed and finally get me on the way towards meeting my personal goals..
And it's been way too long since I've written anything here. I plan on doing at least one update a week. I'm finding this very cathartic.