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me and stephen hung out today. he picked me up after practice, and we went to pine street. looked at the city and talked about how fucked up shit was. and talked and sat and stared. then we left, and got pulled over. he got a ticket. and now i'm here...predictably blaming myself for everything and anything that comes it's way. but i just read zoe's livejournal, and realzied...jesus christ. we're all so fucking close it's hilarious. we're like a huge ass group of people who live together, but not. we all know one another, and all have these crazy ass, honest opinions on everyone. but we're almost all still here...always still in the picture. and we're all so fucking amazing and stupid all at the same time. we're all in love with each other i think...i truly believe that that was the destruction of anything trustworthy and true...ahaha..everyone and love. fuck thaT! hahah..like i said today, we all just need a fucking orgy and then all to commmit suicide. haha...even that wouldnt work...someone kill someone else differently...or someone would suck on someone better than someone esle..and drama comes. maybe that's it..drama, shit, lies, love, hate, pain, hell, frusteration, friendships, beaches, drugs...all of it. it's all norm here, so it neednt even be classified or identified. we are all just what we are. fucking music! always makes me feel so strange, so many feelings...so much, it sends me going and going and going. and i write. jesus christ. serious everyone. you're amazing. get that through your head. and also, get it through that everything blows chunks sooo bad, and everyone's a lying peice of shit, and they will back talk you, and they will go back to someone they said they hated, cause we all fuck up, and they will say mean things about you, and they will become attracted to you...jesus.! FUCK FUCK! LIFE IS SO FUCKING.....wow. amazing. it's so amazing, no matter what it is...fuck fuck fuck! serious..
everyonne
let's all go to the beach.
every
single
fucking
one
of
us
everybody
all the fucks and the rapists and the liars and the babies and the shitters and the pretties and the chills and the happy and the sad and the suicidal...EVERYONE PLEASE LET'S DOO iT
hahahaha
or not.
jesus
i am so elated.
bad and soo bad and good and soo good
jesus
JESUS
WHAT IS WITH THIS!
it feels like we should have a graduation, where we just walk off these steps, and clap for one another, and then the person just dissapers...
some end to all of this
FUCK
i am so weird and god damn memory filled
FUCK
FUCK
everyone
someone plan it
we all need to stand on the beach and just run into the water and kill ourselves, proove ourselves to that higher being we never could proove ourselves to!!!
....
jesus
fuck me now god. fuck me so hard that it hurts...please you mother fucker...just throw it at me and let me feel the pain. i want it so bad, i want to feel you god, touch me and look into my eyes and explain everything to my fucking face.
why does it all make sense sometimes?
and you all make me so god damn happy.
ahaha
sorry to steal the thunder zoe...although no one will give a fuck anyhow..
this is the last one.
yes. smile baby. i love you.
everyonne
let's all go to the beach.
every
single
fucking
one
of
us
everybody
all the fucks and the rapists and the liars and the babies and the shitters and the pretties and the chills and the happy and the sad and the suicidal...EVERYONE PLEASE LET'S DOO iT
hahahaha
or not.
jesus
i am so elated.
bad and soo bad and good and soo good
jesus
JESUS
WHAT IS WITH THIS!
it feels like we should have a graduation, where we just walk off these steps, and clap for one another, and then the person just dissapers...
some end to all of this
FUCK
i am so weird and god damn memory filled
FUCK
FUCK
everyone
someone plan it
we all need to stand on the beach and just run into the water and kill ourselves, proove ourselves to that higher being we never could proove ourselves to!!!
....
jesus
fuck me now god. fuck me so hard that it hurts...please you mother fucker...just throw it at me and let me feel the pain. i want it so bad, i want to feel you god, touch me and look into my eyes and explain everything to my fucking face.
why does it all make sense sometimes?
and you all make me so god damn happy.
ahaha
sorry to steal the thunder zoe...although no one will give a fuck anyhow..
this is the last one.
yes. smile baby. i love you.