For the 'Chocolate and conflict' prompt.
This is part of my developing Neville / Hannah ficverse. I may expand it into a longer story at a later date, depending on some book or other that's coming out in a few months. It can be read on its own but it'll be even better if you've read Anya's wonderful 'party fluff'
here.
Title: As sweet ...
Summary: In rainy London, Hannah Abbott is lonely as she remembers a Valentine's day spent in warmer climes.
Pairing: Neville / Hannah Abbott
Rating: PG13
Word count: 2385
Warnings: Possibly slightly spoilerish for the latest chapter of
Asking for Roses.
Hannah stared out of the kitchen window at the lowering sky outside. The
wind howled, a freezing draught sneaking in under the back door. She shivered
and put her hands around the electric kettle to warm them. Twenty-three years
old, and here she was on Valentine’s day making cocoa for her dad, when she
could be on the other side of the planet, with the person she loved most in
the world. A traitorous tear splashed onto the cheap vinyl worktop. Was this
old kettle ever going to boil? Hannah couldn’t be bothered to wait any longer.
She filled the mug with cold water from the tap and pointed her wand at it.
As always, the scalding liquid bubbled its way over the rim. She watched the
brown puddle spread and mingle with the round droplet of her tear, before
sliding off the counter and dripping onto the floor. Damn, now she’d have
to clean that up.
When she’d taken the cocoa to Dad, who merely grunted, not lifting his eyes
from his crossword, she went back into the kitchen to start making her lunch
- chilli con carne - for the next day. The food in the Ministry
canteen was excellent, but it was too expensive to eat there every day. As
a lowly employee in the Muggle Liaison branch of Magical Law Enforcement,
Hannah’s salary didn’t stretch very far, especially when she was putting half
of it away in her vault every month. She could manage to keep a roof over
their heads and not much more. Dad had promised to look for a job now that
she was living with him again, but she’d believe it when she saw it.
Adding the grated dark chocolate to the bubbling pot of chilli, Hannah remembered
last Valentine’s day. How the evening had started so promisingly, and yet
ended so badly. She’d been staying with Neville in a rented flat in Bandar
Seri Begawan, where they were holidaying for a few weeks, following the successful
completion of their specimen-collecting assignment in Borneo. They’d spent
a hot and tiring day wandering through the tamu, taking in the colourful sights
and smells of the local market stalls, coming home to enjoy a late-afternoon
dip in the salt-water pool attached to their apartment complex. They hadn’t
bothered getting dressed again after their swim. The old apartment, the best
they could afford until the next instalment of their fee arrived in their
joint Gringott’s account, wasn’t air-conditioned, and soaked up the sun’s
heat during the day.
“Chocolate, in chilli … are you sure?” she asked Neville, who came up to
the cooker to tip in the little pile he’d prepared with the nutmeg grater.
They both enjoyed the preparation stage of cooking, the chopping and shredding
and peeling, but it was Neville who was the creative one when it came to combining
the ingredients. Hannah would be intent on sticking to the recipe, terrified
that the dish would turn out wrong. Neville, on the other hand, was happy
to experiment, take daring risks which nearly always paid off.
“Trust me,” he said, standing behind her as she stirred, wrapping his arms
around her waist. His thumbs stroked her ribcage in the gap between her sarong
and the top half of her bathing costume. In a minute, she knew, they’d find
their way underneath her bikini top. She leaned back against his bare chest
and breathed in the scent of his skin, slightly salty from his swim and intermingled
with the rich smells of cumin and tomatoes and onions steaming from the hob.
Underneath, however, its familiarity was unchanging - sun, rain, the
earth. Even in South East Asia, Neville always reminded her of the English
countryside, the garden behind their little house in North Yorkshire after
fresh rainfall. A year later, it was a scent Hannah was beginning to find
hard to bring to mind, during long days buried in the dusty airlessness of
her office in Misuse of Muggle Artefacts.
“I do,” she replied, struggling to keep her mind on the task in hand. “But
you’d better stop that, if you want to eat tonight.”
“I am hungry,” he said contemplatively,
slipping his hands out of her top, but only to snap open the fastening at
the small of her back. “I’m just not sure what for.”
“I - I think it’s done, anyway,” she gasped. “It needs to be left to
simmer now for half an hour or so.”
“How cooperative of it,” said Neville, tugging at her sarong, while simultaneously
drawing her by the hand into the bedroom next to the kitchen.
The chilli had tasted wonderful, Hannah remembered. They’d eaten it sitting
cross-legged on the bed, with bread to soak up the juices, scooping up the
meat and beans by hand. Then as they lay back with their coffee, the conversation
had turned, again, to the future.
“The letter said both of us.” Neville
said stubbornly, his voice full of hurt. “I don’t see why you can’t stay with
me and accept the job.” They’d been talking round in circles for over a week
but Hannah didn’t feel any impatience with him. She just felt sadder every
time she looked at the clock and counted down the minutes until she would
have to leave. Talking it over made the fact of her going home seem less real,
as though somehow they might yet find some way to stop it happening.
“How can I do that now? I’ve already turned it down. I doubt our employers
would be impressed with me shilly-shallying. Anyway, I have to go back. The
Ministry is waiting for me. You know they weren’t keen on me extending my
sabbatical when we were posted on from Brazil.”
“You don’t owe them anything. They exploit you. They’ve got you exactly where
they want you, and it’ll stay that way until you make the break.”
“We’ve been through this before. I promised myself I’d stay there ten years.
Then I’ll have done what I need to pay off my debt, and be free. You agreed
with me. You thought I was doing the right thing.”
“Things change. They’ve changed for me. I have to take this job. It’s the
best opportunity I’m ever going to get, but I don’t want it without you beside
me.” Neville moved so that he was kneeling in front of her, taking her hands
and looking directly at her. “We make a good team. I’d never have found those
specimens on my own, without you to help detect the magic, in all that jungle.”
Hannah’s eyes slid sideways.“That’s not true. You’d have got them eventually,
I helped speed the process up a bit, that’s all. In the mountains you won’t
need me at all.” She voiced her first unassailable argument. “They only offered
me the chance to stay on in order to keep you sweet, it’s obvious.” Neville
opened his mouth to argue but Hannah didn’t let him cut in. “Besides, it’s
more than the Ministry. You know why I have to go back to Britain.”
Her voice was quiet. She didn’t want to mention Dad but Neville shouldn’t
push her this way. It wasn’t fair. It was different for him. His parents didn’t
know he existed, so it hardly mattered whether he were there or not. Besides,
he had the perfect excuse. It was to try and help people like Alice and Frank
that they were here in the first place. Augusta had Griselda and all her other
friends for company, and she really didn’t need looking after, however protective
of her Neville might feel, especially now she had help around the house for
a few hours each week from the house elf agency. Neither would it be fair
to drag him back home, not when he’d been looking for work that would hold
his interest for at least a year before getting this job, going from one small
contract to another, always over-qualified. He’d made the best of it, as was
his way, done his best to pretend that the rewards of being able make life
easier for his Gran and put a bit to one side for the wedding were enough
to satisfy him.
The wedding. Something else she didn’t want to mention. It would be spectacularly
unfair to whine about having to put it off again. Besides, he’d be quite justified
in bringing up the fact that was hardly his fault it hadn’t happened before
they’d left England twelve months earlier. Dad again, putting in one of his
periodic disappearances days before the planned ceremony. They’d laughed it
off, joking about how he was worse than Neville’s old toad, Trevor. It hadn’t
seemed to matter too much at the time, they were so excited at the prospect
of setting off on their big adventure. Now, facing separation from Neville
for the next two years, while he continued travelling around the world for
a hateful boss with that scary wife with the magic that burned, Hannah couldn’t
help wishing that the pretty heirloom on her finger was already completed
by a simple gold band.
They were back to where they’d started. Hannah’s portkey to Britain was already
booked for the following day, as was Neville’s to take him onto Nepal. The
conversation had ended there, Hannah mute with the effort of not begging Neville
to come back with her. After a final attempt to persuade her to stay, he too
had lapsed into pensive silence.
It was the last time they saw each other until Christmas, three months later.
It had been an awkward holiday, uncomfortably divided between Hannah and her
Dad’s tacky rented bungalow and Augusta’s pin-neat, welcoming home. The cosy
little house on the hill nearby, where they’d lived together for three years
after the war, had been let to a Herbologist by the name of Belby, who’d been
in their year at school and who Neville knew slightly through work. They hadn’t
even bothered to make the walk up Odin’s Hill for old times sake.
When he’d headed back to the Himalayas on New Year’s Day, he promised to
be back for her birthday in May, and at the same time broke the news that
it was unlikely he’d be able to get away before then. They had kissed desperately,
until they were breathless, but Hannah had felt ice starting to form around
her heart the minute he’d gone, remembering the eagerness in his eyes winning
over sadness at leaving her behind again. The separation between them was
turning into more than physical distance. She was losing him, and it hurt
almost unbearably.
As she set the chilli to stir itself, while she grated the chocolate into
the pan, Hannah leaned into the aroma, allowing the steam to warm her chilled
face. When all the ingredients were in, she sat down at the table, and listened
to the wind howling. She twisted the engagement ring on her finger, wondering
if she was a fool even to be wearing it still. A small scratching noise started
up behind her, which Hannah ignored. Her cat really ought to have learned
how to use the cat-flap properly by now. This wasn’t the house in Yorkshire,
protected by all of Alice and Frank’s security spells. Nor was it as safe
a place as Augusta’s, who had fostered the animal during Hannah’s stay overseas.
In this anonymous London suburb, the back door stayed firmly locked at all
times, even though it would take only a half-brick launched through the frosted
glass if someone were determined to break in.
Was it really scratching she could hear though? It sounded more like … tapping.
And it wasn’t coming from the bottom of the door, but higher up. Hannah turned
round in her seat and then jumped out of it at the sight of a figure outlined
in the door frame. Her heart beat faster, and she grabbed her wand that was
lying on the table top.
“Who is it?” Her voice was a feeble, strangled squeak. She took herself in
hand. For heaven’s sake, she could defend herself perfectly well. “I’m warning
you,” she called, standing up and moving towards the door. “I’m armed.”
A very familiar voice answered, “For the love of Merlin, Hannah, it’s me.
Let me in, I’ve been travelling all day. Couldn’t get a last minute Portkey
for love nor money.”
Neville. She threw herself at the
chains and bolts on the back door. “Wait!” she cried. “I’ll have it open in
a minute.”
“I’m not waiting a second longer. Stand back.”
The door swung open slowly to reveal Neville standing there, wand upraised,
looking very tanned and not at all cold in a thick, fleecy coat she hadn’t
seen before, making him appear twice his usual width. No wonder she hadn’t
recognised his silhouette.
“Happy Valentine’s day,” he said simply, holding out a bunch of delicate
blooms in a depth of blue Hannah thought only existed in dreams. She took
them from him, and laid them reverently on the counter, revelling in the knowledge
that Neville would take responsibility for dealing with them - because
he was here.
“Come in out of the cold,” she whispered, pulling him inside and shutting
the door. She was overwhelmed by the suddenness of the change from dark, cold
misery to bright light and warmth. “Why didn’t you ring the front door bell?”
“I wanted to surprise you. And I didn’t want to get your dad. I didn’t mean
to scare you, I’m sorry.”
“Don’t be sorry. I can hardly believe it’s you, that’s all.” She moved closer,
into the circle of Neville’s presence, shutting her eyes to drink in the smell
of mountains, of clear, open sky. “Are you hungry? I made chilli, and I even
remembered to put in the chocolate.”
His arms came up to encircle her, pulling his coat around her. She yielded
to the fleece’s incredible softness and warmth, feeling the tight band of
ice around her heart loosen and begin to melt. “Starving,” he murmured. “May
I?”
He lifted his wand again, and severed the elastic band that was holding her
hair back. He dropped his wand on the worktop, next to the flowers. “That’s
my Hannah,” he said, running his hands through her hair and tipping her head
back, so she was gazing directly up into his brown eyes, hot with concentration
as they roamed her face, taking in every inch as he always did, making her
feel like the most important thing in the universe. She stood on tiptoe to
reach up for her kiss, in her impatient fashion. He didn’t keep her waiting.
His kiss was harder, more urgent than she remembered and his lips were slightly
chapped, that was different. But after a moment or two, it all came back to
her, and she found her body responding in the way it always had, melting and
moulding itself to his, more muscled and defined than even two months earlier,
yet still, indescribably, him. If she weren’t careful, in a minute they wouldn’t be able to stop themselves
and Dad might walk in to find her on the kitchen table in a state of considerable
disarray. That would be embarrassing. Worse, they might have to stop and have
a conversation.
“My room,” she managed to articulate, as Neville’s mouth moved to her throat,
his hands pushing up the back of her shirt to trace a line up and down her
spine.
“How long has that chilli got to go?” he asked, nudging the flowers into
the sink with his elbow and releasing her long enough to turn on the tap so
that the ends of the stems were in water.
Hannah took his hand to lead him from the kitchen and along the corridor
to her bedroom. She stopped by the cooker on their way out. “If I turn it
down, a good hour,” she answered.