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School always just gives me weird, ugly vibes...I always feel unnatural, and just "wrong."
I feel that I really need to focus on what's really true, and that is the Lord's love. I've felt it, seen it...it's real. Everything else is a lie that I'm willing to follow. The social anxiety, and the fear...it's only because I'm relying on myself too much. I need to just let God use me as an instrument for his expression.
It's hard having Lora so far away too...I really miss her, a lot...it's like all the more lately, I feel this strong need to just have her by my side to console me...
This is good though...I know although I'm afraid, God is working to my benefit. I trust him. I really do. I know that this year, I'll gather something new, and something valuable. It's a time for me to atone for previous mistakes, and look onward to a great future.
I love my girlfriend so much...I just want to put out there that she's truly an amazing girl, and has done nothing but inspire me, heal me, and make me feel confident. I wish I could give back to her what she's given me...
Uggggghhhh...don't like this anxiety...but I need to just let it go...
Take it easy you guys-
I feel that I really need to focus on what's really true, and that is the Lord's love. I've felt it, seen it...it's real. Everything else is a lie that I'm willing to follow. The social anxiety, and the fear...it's only because I'm relying on myself too much. I need to just let God use me as an instrument for his expression.
It's hard having Lora so far away too...I really miss her, a lot...it's like all the more lately, I feel this strong need to just have her by my side to console me...
This is good though...I know although I'm afraid, God is working to my benefit. I trust him. I really do. I know that this year, I'll gather something new, and something valuable. It's a time for me to atone for previous mistakes, and look onward to a great future.
I love my girlfriend so much...I just want to put out there that she's truly an amazing girl, and has done nothing but inspire me, heal me, and make me feel confident. I wish I could give back to her what she's given me...
Uggggghhhh...don't like this anxiety...but I need to just let it go...
Take it easy you guys-