a penny for good luck?
If I found a penny in the washer does that count as good luck?
I sure hope so.
This entry will probably be long and pointless. I've been nannying since Monday and working every day at the bistro while the kids are at school. I'm exhausted. Seriously, I have the three best behaved kids in the world and I'm about to have a break down. I've been waking up at 6:45 everyday and going to bed before ten. I'm tired. Dishes, laundry, errands, dinner, packing lunches, working at the bistro, and trying to keep sane at the same time has got to be the hardest thing in the world. My cousin came to visit me one night and we watched the Notebook. Hi, dumb idea considering i'm loveless and needing a companion. I just need hugs and people my age. It's not even going out that I miss, I just miss company. I'm ready to get my double shift over with tomorrow and come home to my own shower, my own bed, and people my own age. It was great to see my cousin and drink a couple glasses of wine. I brought the boys over to my house to watch movies and order out pizza shuttle. I needed a change of atmosphere and it was a good escape. Well, atleast for a couple hours. I close on Sunday and then Kenzie is coming in and we're going to go out and chat. I'm excited because I really miss her. I'm excited for her to see my new place :) Once again, it's adorable!
I feel worked out of every ounce of energy that I have. It feels rewarding and once I get paid it'll be even more rewarding. A months rent plus extra for my credit card will have me in the clouds. The only thing i wish I had, was more energy. It's making me crabby and I feel kind of depressed. I was sad today and the middle kid gave me a hug. They are such sweet kids and if... IF... I have kids, I want them to be exactly like these kids. That's a long shot and highly unlikely. AYe, my mind is clouded and I'm sorry that I'm complaining. I need a man. Dating is fun, but not as fun as we make it out to be. Granted, it's great to go out and meet new people without restrictions but after a year and a half I'm ready to settle. The russian is basically out of the picture. We haven't really talked. The guy upstairs is iffy. He didn't call for two days but then came down to say hi and then has called me since then. I guess I'm going to play that by ear. I have a problem though... when I feel emotions for someone I kind of jump on them and run with it. When I take things slow and seldomnly see the person, my feelings kind of fade. I guess that's just how I've always been. Not only do I need some affection and cuddles, man... I need some ASS. What the hell? Yea that's a bitch. Ok, now that I've rambled about nothing and complained your ear off, i'm going to do laundry and dishes until I pass out I'm just waiting for the morning to come so that I can get my looooong saturday out of the way. If you have encouraging words or feel like texting me a nice "feel better" message, it would be much appreciated. I feel like I have fallen off the face of the earth. Bring me back.
Help your dear friend Nicky.
I love you all
goodnight
I sure hope so.
This entry will probably be long and pointless. I've been nannying since Monday and working every day at the bistro while the kids are at school. I'm exhausted. Seriously, I have the three best behaved kids in the world and I'm about to have a break down. I've been waking up at 6:45 everyday and going to bed before ten. I'm tired. Dishes, laundry, errands, dinner, packing lunches, working at the bistro, and trying to keep sane at the same time has got to be the hardest thing in the world. My cousin came to visit me one night and we watched the Notebook. Hi, dumb idea considering i'm loveless and needing a companion. I just need hugs and people my age. It's not even going out that I miss, I just miss company. I'm ready to get my double shift over with tomorrow and come home to my own shower, my own bed, and people my own age. It was great to see my cousin and drink a couple glasses of wine. I brought the boys over to my house to watch movies and order out pizza shuttle. I needed a change of atmosphere and it was a good escape. Well, atleast for a couple hours. I close on Sunday and then Kenzie is coming in and we're going to go out and chat. I'm excited because I really miss her. I'm excited for her to see my new place :) Once again, it's adorable!
I feel worked out of every ounce of energy that I have. It feels rewarding and once I get paid it'll be even more rewarding. A months rent plus extra for my credit card will have me in the clouds. The only thing i wish I had, was more energy. It's making me crabby and I feel kind of depressed. I was sad today and the middle kid gave me a hug. They are such sweet kids and if... IF... I have kids, I want them to be exactly like these kids. That's a long shot and highly unlikely. AYe, my mind is clouded and I'm sorry that I'm complaining. I need a man. Dating is fun, but not as fun as we make it out to be. Granted, it's great to go out and meet new people without restrictions but after a year and a half I'm ready to settle. The russian is basically out of the picture. We haven't really talked. The guy upstairs is iffy. He didn't call for two days but then came down to say hi and then has called me since then. I guess I'm going to play that by ear. I have a problem though... when I feel emotions for someone I kind of jump on them and run with it. When I take things slow and seldomnly see the person, my feelings kind of fade. I guess that's just how I've always been. Not only do I need some affection and cuddles, man... I need some ASS. What the hell? Yea that's a bitch. Ok, now that I've rambled about nothing and complained your ear off, i'm going to do laundry and dishes until I pass out I'm just waiting for the morning to come so that I can get my looooong saturday out of the way. If you have encouraging words or feel like texting me a nice "feel better" message, it would be much appreciated. I feel like I have fallen off the face of the earth. Bring me back.
Help your dear friend Nicky.
I love you all
goodnight