Balance
I tried to erg at the gym today, but without any real idea of what I wanted to accomplish, I got bored. I miss rowing, but I'm not going to erg to try to reconnect with it. I've always hated erging, anyway. Otherwise, the gym thing is going all right. I'm trying to go every day after work so that I get into the habit of it, but I missed last Friday due to laziness (didn't go to taiko either). I'm still resentful of the time it takes up, though. I'm trying to keep my gym time down to about an hour and a half (including changing and whatnot), but I still don't get home now until ~6:30pm, which is almost 12 hours out of the house not having any fun. And, of course, Ross is usually here when I get home, so I miss out on my alone-doing-fun-Miriam-things time, time that I need to recover from having to interface with the world. I guess I'm just going to have to get used to that, though. In the long run, I'll feel better for the exercise and I'm forcing myself to use my cardio machine time for introspection, which will make me a more functional human being.
What makes this all even more troubling is that I'm losing my weekends, too. This past weekend I managed to rebalance myself by blowing off my Saturday plans (a taiko gig I never actually committed to) and sleeping in. This weekend, I won't have that opportunity as I've got an Engineers without Borders conference on Saturday (I need to look into when and where) and a weaving class on Sunday. Fun things, I hope, but not the sitting around the apartment doing very little that I've come to depend on (or, more precisely, that I've never learned to do without). And yet, I want to do these activites. I want to meet more people. I want to make more friends and learn new things and perhaps find some kind of community here. So I need to figure out some kind of balance. At the moment, I can't imagine what that might be, but I'll devote my cardio machine time to the problem and maybe I'll figure something out.
What makes this all even more troubling is that I'm losing my weekends, too. This past weekend I managed to rebalance myself by blowing off my Saturday plans (a taiko gig I never actually committed to) and sleeping in. This weekend, I won't have that opportunity as I've got an Engineers without Borders conference on Saturday (I need to look into when and where) and a weaving class on Sunday. Fun things, I hope, but not the sitting around the apartment doing very little that I've come to depend on (or, more precisely, that I've never learned to do without). And yet, I want to do these activites. I want to meet more people. I want to make more friends and learn new things and perhaps find some kind of community here. So I need to figure out some kind of balance. At the moment, I can't imagine what that might be, but I'll devote my cardio machine time to the problem and maybe I'll figure something out.