Yom Kippur Meditation
I took a walk of the farm this afternoon to remind myself why I'm here. The short of it: I'm here to grow food. I am successfully growing food. The rest of it, the loneliness, the lethargy, the worry about what comes next, does not mean that this is not the right path for me. I just haven't come to the end of the path yet.
I need to remember to enjoy the now. I need to remember that I have an entire network of friends across the country and the world who only want the best for me. Perhaps the most important thing for me to do today, this Day of Atonement, is to renew those bonds and thank those friends for being my family. For an introvert, I've done extraordinarily well for myself.
I also want to clarify my hopes and desires, for myself and for the universe.
1. I would like someday to have my own little piece of ground. I would like that ground to sustain me for the rest of my life. I would like that ground to become a home that brings me joy.
2. I would like a community of friends and family near me and my little piece of ground. A community to support me, help me build, and share in my joy.
3. I would like a someone to share in my life with me, to love and be loved. Someone to be sustained by me and my little piece of ground. To be a part of my community and share in my joy.
One little reminder: I tend to think of this list as being in chronological order. Part of my current lethargy is the feeling that all my dreams are impossibly far away. But I don't know my own future. I can only follow my path and see what comes.
I need to remember to enjoy the now. I need to remember that I have an entire network of friends across the country and the world who only want the best for me. Perhaps the most important thing for me to do today, this Day of Atonement, is to renew those bonds and thank those friends for being my family. For an introvert, I've done extraordinarily well for myself.
I also want to clarify my hopes and desires, for myself and for the universe.
1. I would like someday to have my own little piece of ground. I would like that ground to sustain me for the rest of my life. I would like that ground to become a home that brings me joy.
2. I would like a community of friends and family near me and my little piece of ground. A community to support me, help me build, and share in my joy.
3. I would like a someone to share in my life with me, to love and be loved. Someone to be sustained by me and my little piece of ground. To be a part of my community and share in my joy.
One little reminder: I tend to think of this list as being in chronological order. Part of my current lethargy is the feeling that all my dreams are impossibly far away. But I don't know my own future. I can only follow my path and see what comes.