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I want to be wise. I want to be able to follow everyone's advice and be perfectly ok. No matter how many times I tell myself that I will be fine my heart doesn't listen. It makes sense in my head so why does it bother me? I guess it will get better with time... but now I have no plan, I don't know what I want and that is so freakin' scary. I hate being so unsure.
"...And it hurts to want everything and nothing at the same time
I want what's yours and I want what's mine
I want you
But I'm not giving in this time..."
I feel bad I had to pull over and throw up in a stranger's driveway this morning on my way home...gross huh? I was so close to making it home too! ugh yeah that was basically what my day has consisted of... blah
well gosh this was such a cheerful update