It was opening weekend for the Secret Garden at my theater.
Of course, I was not in it. And how I wish I could have been. The director was Lance Moore, who is brilliant.
And the music recalls many forgotten emotional strings from the past.
It was the second show I saw on Broadway. I must have been 10 or 11. I loved the book and didn't care much for all the ghosts standing around singing for so much of the piece--I wanted to see more of Mary and Colin.
But the music grew on me.
I remember making a tape from the CD for Anne, my CTY roommate summer after 8th grade. We both loved Dickon's voice.
"Winter's on the Wing" was my song for the beginning of 9th grade. It was September, not spring, but things were changing for the better, and I was there to see it, feel it, breathe it. I was back on top of the world, filled with energy. It's my favorite song in the show. (When will I get back to that feeling again?)
I remember recording "Hold On" for Christa. I don't remember what was the rough time that was the reason why. Sometimes, it's a good song for these days, now.
And of course I remember first breathing my own air into bringing Lily to life in front of an audience. It was the "Tribute to Broadway" in 11th grade. I sang the "Clusters of Crocus/Come to My Garden" duet with Jon and we added our own blocking, and it was so much fun.
That Tribute could also be considered the start of what became known as the "polygon" or "web", a tangled mess of high-school crushes and friendships, as it was when the first sparks between Christa and Jon became apparent. It was still a month before my triangle came into existence.
And the show was the reason I was tired when I took the SAT the next morning, and didn't do as well as I could. I had my priorities straight, theater before stupid tests, and I'm still proud of that decision.
I worked on "How Could I Ever Know" with my voice teacher at Cornell, and sang it in the Math Department Concert. It must have been junior or senior year. I still often use it as a warm-up.
"Race You to the Top of the Morning" reminds me of my dad keeping up with my brother.
And I should bike home before I fall asleep...but I've listened to the sound track enough that all the songs are a part of me by now.
Very painful not to be a part of the show on my theater's gorgeous stage.
But it was very beautiful to watch. And they'll only get better next weekend...