Pregnancy Update
Once I hit 10 1/2 weeks things got a lot better. I’m feeling depressed today, but it's the first time since then and I'm almost 13 weeks. Ed and I looked at baby stuff over the weekend and it seemed fine at first, but them suddenly last night everything felt too much. Too much money, not enough space, not enough time.
And even though the depression has waned, I’m getting sick most everyday. I throw up or gag every time I brush my teeth. I get headaches. I’m really picky about what I eat, because most stuff makes me nauseas. Ice cream helps with the nausea.
Overall I am doing much better, just having a down day and using this journal as a source of release. I bet a lot of women look back at all the missed opportunities in their life when they are pregnant, all the dreams that have to be put off for years now. It’s like a death and rebirth: death of the maiden, birth of the mother. Change, no matter how absolute and prepared for, is difficult if you fight it. I need to just let go and let things happen.
And even though the depression has waned, I’m getting sick most everyday. I throw up or gag every time I brush my teeth. I get headaches. I’m really picky about what I eat, because most stuff makes me nauseas. Ice cream helps with the nausea.
Overall I am doing much better, just having a down day and using this journal as a source of release. I bet a lot of women look back at all the missed opportunities in their life when they are pregnant, all the dreams that have to be put off for years now. It’s like a death and rebirth: death of the maiden, birth of the mother. Change, no matter how absolute and prepared for, is difficult if you fight it. I need to just let go and let things happen.