Who will save us?
Maybe it's the cloudy skies or the lonely puddles. Maybe it's too much time in the library. Or maybe it's growing up too quickly. Maybe it's nostalgic feelings or maybe it's emptiness. It's hard to tell anymore.
Demanding more and more and more... I feel like that's all that's happening now that the semester is winding down, and it's really gotten the best of my, as far as I can tell. I know I need to pull my grades up because I don't want to be a failure in my parents eyes or to disappoint myself any more in life. The workload has increased in all of my classes now that the semester is coming to an end. The days I had nothing to do were great, but I wish I hadn't have had them all now. I'd rather have had a steady pace of things to do rather than having papers and tests and presentations thrown at me at one time.
But that's just life.
I watched "The Graduate" last night for the first time, and it really hit my close in some ways. Ben is generally negative because of his fear of the future, and I can relate to that--not in the sense that I'm negative a lot (I don't think I am, mainly just when I'm in a writing mood), but more that I can relate to the fear. I think that everyone feels this way at points in time, and there's not a thing we can do about it.
Not knowing is a scary feeling.
I signed a lease to live off campus next year. I'm excited to have my own room again, but I'm also so fearful of it. As much as I don't think I like to share my room, I think not living with close friends will be terrifying for me. Sure, I won't have anyone moving things to places I cannot find them because it will be my own room, but I also won't have someone to talk to right before going to sleep. I can tell Delancey and Mary anything, and maybe I'll call them every night just to say "I need you" before I go to sleep.
I feel like I've been out of rhythm lately. I feel like I didn't notice that I'm being forced to grow up, and suddenly my eyes openned up to it. And now I realize that time has skipped forward a few years without me noticing it.
I didn't notice it.
I didn't notice it at all.
And sometimes I feel beside myself. I feel like I'm not me. But how can anyone really feel like they're not him/herself? Change is a part of life. I need to remind myself of that. It's supposed to happen, and I need to accept it. But some times I'm not ready to do it.
The loneliest part of college is not having that gentle touch or strong hug from close friends or from my parents. Sure, I have friends here, but not to the degree that I need. This isn't meant to put my friendships down. It's just that sometimes I just wish I had my friends here to hug me and talk to me and let me know that they feel the same way sometimes. I feel so far away from everyone, in a sense.
But what can you do? It's life. I just need to keep on going, no matter what.
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"Save Us" - Cartel
Simple words we never knew,
The power behind what they put us through,
Now it's all begun what it takes to make it real.
We're standing on the edge of this,
When our soul is gone what will we miss?
We lost what it takes to really, really feel.
But the better day's behind us now,
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save? Can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
We hold these truths self evident,
The lies we used to represent
Who we are because it was never meant to be.
And all the songs we used to sing, they used to tell us everything.
now we left with all we´re left is memories
But the better day's behind us now.
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
Well this can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save? Can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
Say the words, give it all the time you need.
Let it out, oh you say anything.
Say the words and make them count,
Say it loud without a doubt.
Give us truth and nothing more,
Leave us wanting more and more.
who will save us?
This can't go on.
Without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save? Can you save us?
Well I can't go on
we're out of rhythm with our time.
And can you save?
Can you save us?
I can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming
And can you save?
You say you'll save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time
Demanding more and more and more... I feel like that's all that's happening now that the semester is winding down, and it's really gotten the best of my, as far as I can tell. I know I need to pull my grades up because I don't want to be a failure in my parents eyes or to disappoint myself any more in life. The workload has increased in all of my classes now that the semester is coming to an end. The days I had nothing to do were great, but I wish I hadn't have had them all now. I'd rather have had a steady pace of things to do rather than having papers and tests and presentations thrown at me at one time.
But that's just life.
I watched "The Graduate" last night for the first time, and it really hit my close in some ways. Ben is generally negative because of his fear of the future, and I can relate to that--not in the sense that I'm negative a lot (I don't think I am, mainly just when I'm in a writing mood), but more that I can relate to the fear. I think that everyone feels this way at points in time, and there's not a thing we can do about it.
Not knowing is a scary feeling.
I signed a lease to live off campus next year. I'm excited to have my own room again, but I'm also so fearful of it. As much as I don't think I like to share my room, I think not living with close friends will be terrifying for me. Sure, I won't have anyone moving things to places I cannot find them because it will be my own room, but I also won't have someone to talk to right before going to sleep. I can tell Delancey and Mary anything, and maybe I'll call them every night just to say "I need you" before I go to sleep.
I feel like I've been out of rhythm lately. I feel like I didn't notice that I'm being forced to grow up, and suddenly my eyes openned up to it. And now I realize that time has skipped forward a few years without me noticing it.
I didn't notice it.
I didn't notice it at all.
And sometimes I feel beside myself. I feel like I'm not me. But how can anyone really feel like they're not him/herself? Change is a part of life. I need to remind myself of that. It's supposed to happen, and I need to accept it. But some times I'm not ready to do it.
The loneliest part of college is not having that gentle touch or strong hug from close friends or from my parents. Sure, I have friends here, but not to the degree that I need. This isn't meant to put my friendships down. It's just that sometimes I just wish I had my friends here to hug me and talk to me and let me know that they feel the same way sometimes. I feel so far away from everyone, in a sense.
But what can you do? It's life. I just need to keep on going, no matter what.
------------
"Save Us" - Cartel
Simple words we never knew,
The power behind what they put us through,
Now it's all begun what it takes to make it real.
We're standing on the edge of this,
When our soul is gone what will we miss?
We lost what it takes to really, really feel.
But the better day's behind us now,
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
This can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save? Can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
We hold these truths self evident,
The lies we used to represent
Who we are because it was never meant to be.
And all the songs we used to sing, they used to tell us everything.
now we left with all we´re left is memories
But the better day's behind us now.
We all need someone to tell us how
To save the state of where we are,
It keeps demanding more and more and more.
And who will save us?
Well this can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save? Can you save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time.
Say the words, give it all the time you need.
Let it out, oh you say anything.
Say the words and make them count,
Say it loud without a doubt.
Give us truth and nothing more,
Leave us wanting more and more.
who will save us?
This can't go on.
Without the meaning in the rhyming.
Can you save? Can you save us?
Well I can't go on
we're out of rhythm with our time.
And can you save?
Can you save us?
I can't go on, without the meaning in the rhyming
And can you save?
You say you'll save us?
Well I can't go on, out of rhythm with our time