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oh lordy..there has been so much on my mind lately..i can't even begin to get it all out..
i'm such a huge procrastinator.
i wish it was next tuesday so i would be done with work-related stress for a while and could just focus on my school-related and, even more, my personal-life related stress.
i'm sucha mess. one minute happier than you could imagine..the next crying in the fetal position.
and my stupid heart. i wish i would just have the heart attack and get it over with cause the prep part is making me crazy. or at least..think i am. which is stressful all on its own.
i want romance.
i want love.
i want sweet touches and kisses
i want to feel small.
and safe
i want to dance when no one is around
i want to let the happiness that sometimes wraps around my heart take me over
but i don't deserve it at all.
im scared.
and my head is pounding
and that dumb paper is calling me so..eh..another entry that leaves me still feeling extremely confused.
i'm such a huge procrastinator.
i wish it was next tuesday so i would be done with work-related stress for a while and could just focus on my school-related and, even more, my personal-life related stress.
i'm sucha mess. one minute happier than you could imagine..the next crying in the fetal position.
and my stupid heart. i wish i would just have the heart attack and get it over with cause the prep part is making me crazy. or at least..think i am. which is stressful all on its own.
i want romance.
i want love.
i want sweet touches and kisses
i want to feel small.
and safe
i want to dance when no one is around
i want to let the happiness that sometimes wraps around my heart take me over
but i don't deserve it at all.
im scared.
and my head is pounding
and that dumb paper is calling me so..eh..another entry that leaves me still feeling extremely confused.