wherever I am you'll always be more than just a memory if I ever leave this world alive
Winter break is almost at a close and I actually have no feelings towards it either way. This vacation has been interesting to say the least. I actually got to see a lot of people and I did quite a few random things all of which were fun.
One of the highlights of this break has got to be Phil's gamefest. From the 27 - 30 of December I, along with quite a few other people, spent our time at Phil's gaming and embracing the geek inside. I was quite impressed with the effort Phil put into it with preparing the games and having a real nice selection of food there. I learned how to play a few new games and I got to know some people a little better. For the most part I ended up not sleeping from being so excited about the whole thing but who needs sleep anyways. There was a point though where I was tempted to leave because of how Steve, David, and George ganged up on me pretty bad for the one day but luckily that was resolved after talking about it with Dave and Steve. As for George I just got on his case a few times the next day and listened to him not being able to take it but being able to dish it out. I think the most surprising thing about that was the fact any of the most significant times I can think of where I enjoyed myself the most was when it mainly involved the older people there. I guess it was because I enjoyed seeing how they reacted with everyone and how they treated me.
Another highlight has got to be last night. I think I had to have laughed harder last night than I have just about this whole break. I went out to play some pool, then bowling, and finally a few of us ended up chilling at Shawn's basement along with some buffalo chicken pizza, which by the way is the best in the world.
New Year's Eve was pretty fun. Near the end of the night it was just Steve, Dave, Ricky, and I and honestly I couldn't see that night going on any other way.
At work I lost one of my favorite co-workers the other day. It's goign to suck but at least there are still some cool people working there. I just love the atmosphere of that place.
There's a possibility I might be going to Canada this week sometime for a few days. Well I mean the trip is going to happen I just have to decide if I want to go for sure or not. I figured I would wait until I talked to my mom tomorrow to fully come to a conclusion on that matter.
The other day I was observing my parents and their friends interact and I realized just how much I hope I end up with relationships like that. It's almost uncanny actually to see everyone (who are in their 30s to 50s) still joking around as if they were my age with my friends. In the end though they always have each others back which I admire greatly. I really do think I have some friends like that but I don't think they are in the people who people would think were my closest friends. Either way I know with the ones I have a great respect for I can fully rely on them for anything and in return they can expect the same from me. I think it's important to realize that main fact because it is in the end what defines the friendship. Sure some of us may seem like we dont get along with the jokes and dialogue between each other but either way each party knows the other is just joking and showing affection for the other person. And before I used to think that might not be normal but upon looking at the adults in my life (because I still dont really consider myself an adult) they are the same way which is real reasurring. I can't even begin to describe how it makes me feel to know that even if I lose touch with some of those friends for a bit the minute we are back together there is no difference in our commitments to each other and everytime we just pick up where we left off without any awkwardness or bitter feelings. It just really upsets me that the people who I should be calling my closest friends really don't think too much of me and are constantly working on who to backstab to make the majority of them like that individual..... I guess I should be lucky though that isn't a normal thing when it comes to real friends and I have stuff like that.
Finally I really miss the conversations I used to have with Steve. I remember a few years ago when one of us would just message the other and we'd talk for sometimes hours about each others lives and everything. I mean we still talk but it's not as much and everytime I always feel as if I am missing something.
One of the highlights of this break has got to be Phil's gamefest. From the 27 - 30 of December I, along with quite a few other people, spent our time at Phil's gaming and embracing the geek inside. I was quite impressed with the effort Phil put into it with preparing the games and having a real nice selection of food there. I learned how to play a few new games and I got to know some people a little better. For the most part I ended up not sleeping from being so excited about the whole thing but who needs sleep anyways. There was a point though where I was tempted to leave because of how Steve, David, and George ganged up on me pretty bad for the one day but luckily that was resolved after talking about it with Dave and Steve. As for George I just got on his case a few times the next day and listened to him not being able to take it but being able to dish it out. I think the most surprising thing about that was the fact any of the most significant times I can think of where I enjoyed myself the most was when it mainly involved the older people there. I guess it was because I enjoyed seeing how they reacted with everyone and how they treated me.
Another highlight has got to be last night. I think I had to have laughed harder last night than I have just about this whole break. I went out to play some pool, then bowling, and finally a few of us ended up chilling at Shawn's basement along with some buffalo chicken pizza, which by the way is the best in the world.
New Year's Eve was pretty fun. Near the end of the night it was just Steve, Dave, Ricky, and I and honestly I couldn't see that night going on any other way.
At work I lost one of my favorite co-workers the other day. It's goign to suck but at least there are still some cool people working there. I just love the atmosphere of that place.
There's a possibility I might be going to Canada this week sometime for a few days. Well I mean the trip is going to happen I just have to decide if I want to go for sure or not. I figured I would wait until I talked to my mom tomorrow to fully come to a conclusion on that matter.
The other day I was observing my parents and their friends interact and I realized just how much I hope I end up with relationships like that. It's almost uncanny actually to see everyone (who are in their 30s to 50s) still joking around as if they were my age with my friends. In the end though they always have each others back which I admire greatly. I really do think I have some friends like that but I don't think they are in the people who people would think were my closest friends. Either way I know with the ones I have a great respect for I can fully rely on them for anything and in return they can expect the same from me. I think it's important to realize that main fact because it is in the end what defines the friendship. Sure some of us may seem like we dont get along with the jokes and dialogue between each other but either way each party knows the other is just joking and showing affection for the other person. And before I used to think that might not be normal but upon looking at the adults in my life (because I still dont really consider myself an adult) they are the same way which is real reasurring. I can't even begin to describe how it makes me feel to know that even if I lose touch with some of those friends for a bit the minute we are back together there is no difference in our commitments to each other and everytime we just pick up where we left off without any awkwardness or bitter feelings. It just really upsets me that the people who I should be calling my closest friends really don't think too much of me and are constantly working on who to backstab to make the majority of them like that individual..... I guess I should be lucky though that isn't a normal thing when it comes to real friends and I have stuff like that.
Finally I really miss the conversations I used to have with Steve. I remember a few years ago when one of us would just message the other and we'd talk for sometimes hours about each others lives and everything. I mean we still talk but it's not as much and everytime I always feel as if I am missing something.