Trying to Stay Awake bocadelinferno
The morphine seemed to be working now. The pain was less. I was tired, but I was not about to let my eyes close. I was scared. I didn’t know what exactly was happening, or even why these dreams were manifesting themselves in this way. I didn’t really know what to make of things.
One minute I was in Wesley’s apartment trying to sort things out. Trying maybe to say goodbye to old feelings. The next I was having a very real nightmare about Professor Seidel trying to send me through another portal. Then I was waking up running out of that place and calling he fist person that came to mind… Charles.
Then there was Wesley, appearing out of nowhere. And then all three of us, Wesley, Charles, and myself went out drinking and then there was the singing and then more drinking. After that we came back to the mansion, Charles and I ended on the floor and everything moved so quickly. Afterwards there was the lovemaking and that horrible dream.
I tried to forget it. Suddenly I was afraid that Seidel would walk in here and shoot me again. What if I was already asleep? What if I never woke up and I was still in danger? I tried to shake the idea off my head. I was safe, I was awake.
I thought about Charles and all the things he said to me. I was happy that we were together again. Just thinking of him made me feel better. He always had a way to make everything seem all better… always. I wanted to close my eyes but I didn’t. Suddenly I thought of Wesley, he had been drunk too. What if he didn’t know about the dreams? What if he had fallen asleep and his dreams were killing him? I had to tell someone. I had to do something.
I tried getting up, but I couldn’t. The pain in my gut was still there. I felt helpless. I was worried about everyone. I was worried for Charles, for Wesley, for Angel and Buffy. I didn’t know what to do. I looked around remembering that Buffy had been in the room, but she was no longer here. I let out a sigh. I hoped the Charles and Angel got to the bottom of things. I didn’t know how long I would be able to keep my eyes open for or my sanity.
One minute I was in Wesley’s apartment trying to sort things out. Trying maybe to say goodbye to old feelings. The next I was having a very real nightmare about Professor Seidel trying to send me through another portal. Then I was waking up running out of that place and calling he fist person that came to mind… Charles.
Then there was Wesley, appearing out of nowhere. And then all three of us, Wesley, Charles, and myself went out drinking and then there was the singing and then more drinking. After that we came back to the mansion, Charles and I ended on the floor and everything moved so quickly. Afterwards there was the lovemaking and that horrible dream.
I tried to forget it. Suddenly I was afraid that Seidel would walk in here and shoot me again. What if I was already asleep? What if I never woke up and I was still in danger? I tried to shake the idea off my head. I was safe, I was awake.
I thought about Charles and all the things he said to me. I was happy that we were together again. Just thinking of him made me feel better. He always had a way to make everything seem all better… always. I wanted to close my eyes but I didn’t. Suddenly I thought of Wesley, he had been drunk too. What if he didn’t know about the dreams? What if he had fallen asleep and his dreams were killing him? I had to tell someone. I had to do something.
I tried getting up, but I couldn’t. The pain in my gut was still there. I felt helpless. I was worried about everyone. I was worried for Charles, for Wesley, for Angel and Buffy. I didn’t know what to do. I looked around remembering that Buffy had been in the room, but she was no longer here. I let out a sigh. I hoped the Charles and Angel got to the bottom of things. I didn’t know how long I would be able to keep my eyes open for or my sanity.