*makes this simple my Xanga entry*
*Him "I didn't call back because I thought you were mad. Anyway I will just talk to ya tomorrow if ya want to? Well sorry again for being me..A smartass"
*Her "Not mad Darrell. Well actually I am because you didn't call back"
*Him "See I can't win for losing but I have to kinda get up at 6 and work tomorrow unlike some people hint hint anyway doyou want me to call you tomorrow after work?"
*Her "If you want to"
*Him "Ok smart ass lol anyway I guess you will have to wait and see"
*Her "Fine. Whatever YOU want Darrell"
*Him "Yes I win this time you are too good. That's why I love to be around and be your friend"
But what if friendship isn't the choice I want? So I guess it's the choice I have to take. I don't see his daughter as baggage. I adore her. But I can't be dated because I'm mean and I'll only be a friend because of that factor. I guess I can deal. But I never knew you talked to your "friends" on the phone for 3-4 hours a night, kiss and hold their hands. And then when he had gotten up at 5 one morning to be at work at 6 he stayed up the entire day and was there at midnight that night to see me when I got off. He's so worried about making me mad. He's so worried that I'm sick...I'm so confused..
I hate being sick. It is the uber queerness. I have fluid behind the right ear. I may have strep, but I think it's a sinus infection considering I keep coughing and snorting snot that is yellow, brown and has blood in it. I'm going to my regular doctor tomorrow. Screw urgent care centers. Didn't give me medication. PSH.
Larry talked to me for the first time in over a week. Heh. All thanks to me sending him that text about needing to fix his freaking head light. So I'm supposed to call him around 9:30 tomorrow night. I may I may not. Not sure how I feel on that anymore.
Travis wants me to go to dinner with him. That is something I'm very unsure of.
Nick has gone back to Ohio for the time being. We got into some major arguementive crap Friday night. I don't know what to think anymore except that I know I will always love him. But ya know, sometimes love just isn't enough. As hard as that may seem...Sometimes things just aren't meant to be.
I want to go to the Alamo and watch Clinch play but I never have weekends off from work and I work NIGHTS on weekends. This is the first weekend I've had off and that's because the dang urgent care doctor wanted me out until Tuesday.
So life is a mess. I'm sick. What from? Life. Lol. I just don't know what to think of any of it anymore.
I don't think I'll ever get married...
*Her "Not mad Darrell. Well actually I am because you didn't call back"
*Him "See I can't win for losing but I have to kinda get up at 6 and work tomorrow unlike some people hint hint anyway doyou want me to call you tomorrow after work?"
*Her "If you want to"
*Him "Ok smart ass lol anyway I guess you will have to wait and see"
*Her "Fine. Whatever YOU want Darrell"
*Him "Yes I win this time you are too good. That's why I love to be around and be your friend"
But what if friendship isn't the choice I want? So I guess it's the choice I have to take. I don't see his daughter as baggage. I adore her. But I can't be dated because I'm mean and I'll only be a friend because of that factor. I guess I can deal. But I never knew you talked to your "friends" on the phone for 3-4 hours a night, kiss and hold their hands. And then when he had gotten up at 5 one morning to be at work at 6 he stayed up the entire day and was there at midnight that night to see me when I got off. He's so worried about making me mad. He's so worried that I'm sick...I'm so confused..
I hate being sick. It is the uber queerness. I have fluid behind the right ear. I may have strep, but I think it's a sinus infection considering I keep coughing and snorting snot that is yellow, brown and has blood in it. I'm going to my regular doctor tomorrow. Screw urgent care centers. Didn't give me medication. PSH.
Larry talked to me for the first time in over a week. Heh. All thanks to me sending him that text about needing to fix his freaking head light. So I'm supposed to call him around 9:30 tomorrow night. I may I may not. Not sure how I feel on that anymore.
Travis wants me to go to dinner with him. That is something I'm very unsure of.
Nick has gone back to Ohio for the time being. We got into some major arguementive crap Friday night. I don't know what to think anymore except that I know I will always love him. But ya know, sometimes love just isn't enough. As hard as that may seem...Sometimes things just aren't meant to be.
I want to go to the Alamo and watch Clinch play but I never have weekends off from work and I work NIGHTS on weekends. This is the first weekend I've had off and that's because the dang urgent care doctor wanted me out until Tuesday.
So life is a mess. I'm sick. What from? Life. Lol. I just don't know what to think of any of it anymore.
I don't think I'll ever get married...